jumi 𐒘𝛠 alt - dni

sure i complain avout my parents sometimes but theyre my entire life and something in me dies every time i see them suffer

i dony know i just want her to be okay

her in pain so muxh

and in the meantimw i heard my mom making noises because she was in pain becausw of the knee surgery so i came to her and asked if she needs help and she said no and staryed to rave about things i dont understany and then she feel asleep immediatelt and im crying even more now becausw i hate seeing

it also made me remember my old doggo and im just crying likw a maniac

im not a religious person but i hope there's heaven for pets and that he's resting there and havinf fun

the cat's name is eriseu

a video of someone rescuing a cat came on my youtube feed and i searched for more info about this cat to know if he's alive and well. he died two months ago. and now im bawling my eyes out

i did research and i know that he died while being loved and well taken care of but it still breaks my heart

that and he broke so many promises already that i can't even count that shit

even mom said that for my dad, homeschooling is a godsend not because i'm feeling way better this way, no. it's a godsend to him because he can just not give a fuck about what's going on in my life

sure he spends money on me but that's all he ever does, he never spends time with me nor does he ever ask about school or about idk, my own interests

money won't replace having an actual reliable dad, but he doesn't fucking get it

and here i was, thinking that he's better than that

it's "you're my daughter, of course i would do anything for you" until i refuse to blindly do whatever he tells me lol

he treats me like that and then is shocked that i'm way closer to mom than to him

if he has so many problems then instead of fucking yelling and getting upset over the dumbest shit, he should go and seek help like a normal person but no, because his sorry ass doesn't believe in mental health lmfao

i'm so fucking tired of him and his bullshit

if he thinks he can get away with shouting at me like that just because i wanted to do something that he just straight up fucking cant do better then he's wrong

what the fuck is wrong with this man

i feel horrible i just want to cry at this point

i just want to sit back and relax but no

i hate this day so much lol

i hate her so fucking much

everything would be better if she just wasn't here

every day i curse whoever thought that living with that thing on a daily basis was a good idea

grandmother keeps on rushing everyone too lol. i fucking hate her

everyone just keeps on yelling at each other lmfao, why bother celebrating easter if they're gonna make it a pain in the ass for everyone involved

wow it's barely 11am and i already wish i didnt wake up today

im so fucking disgusted by that man right now, i don't even want to see nor listen to him

if he can't fucking tell us what he means without yelling and shouting then maybe he shouldnt fucking do anything in the first place

wow