Null :: Pngtuber

Recording the next series for my YouTube channel and im feeling the beat now

Oh god my first video goes live today and the imposter syndrome is strong, what if its cringe??

I know i got this in the bag and im still so excited about this endeavour but god the anxiety

Thats 4 videos existing in my scheduling for youtube, all between 40-45 minutes...thats fucking crazy. Gonna be allowing my discord to pick the second game to go along side Stanley Parable on youtube

Oooo you want access to my discord server so bad:

discord.gg/EjPdrRfD

Discord server is ALMOST set up, i just got to do the lame parts with roles now but UGH I am so much happier with where it is.

Not having social channels outside of membership payments is going to be a blessing for me. Less in a 'I want money' way, but more in a "Yay i get to be an introvert" way

The momentum is returning with restarting my discord server, I need something I can be happy with and I think the new format is working out for me

Itll be a fresh invite link but itll be worth it

It's been refreshing talking to my closest friend about things. I am anxious and nervous. In one sense, I don't want to grow as a content creator; I don't really want to take off. But at the same time, I know by putting myself out there by creating content there is ALWAYS the chance it will happen.

Until i have a adhd wander and come back refocused

Moving to premade videos is a hard choice. But I want to have my cake and eat it too, and right now my adhd doesn’t like it if i sit there for 4-5 hours talking to myself for 4-5 hours straight, when moving to youtube content at least I can pause and people can deal with a cut in content

With all this I would appreciate if people would subscribe and support this journey!

I want to start by going through the old Digimon and Harvest Moon Games, maybe eventually see if i can recruit friends to do a pokemon soullink with me?

www.youtube.com/@VOXELPUPS

I want to show off MY nostalgia games from the early 2000s, but at my pace. I want to try the 'I spent 100 days in X game' but I want to not be held to the focus of entertaining a Live Chat and being stuck pacing out my BRBs.

Right now the plan is the following:
Streaming on Tuesdays and Sundays
Record on Wednesdays and Thursdays
Edit on Fridays

Streaming is going to become more optional for me, but youtube I want to try new things.

It's a harder platform for engagement, but I haven't really ever cared for engagement. I want to be able to share my things I enjoy at my pace and have streaming on the side.

It's gonna take me a little while to get this shit figured out.

Over the last few months, I've been figuring out my focus. I want to stream, but I don't think streaming is going to be a full-time thing for me, it's kinda tiring having to act in real-time to be entertaining, and I want to shift my focus to YouTube.

Its been so hot that its been near impossible to stream. Trying to not let my computer melt!!

Two streams planned this week
Tomorrow with Travellers Rest
Thursday with an Art Stream

i dont know what the logic of me writing this is, kinda cringe im sure, but I just wanna remind myself of why I stream, why i do this, why i yap for 5-7 hours a day when im live.

might delete later but rn im weird headspace where i wanna yap

made me go 'this is the environment i want to curate for my own streams' and thats all I want to do. I dont care for the money, or the raids or how many people enter my stream, I just want the viewers I have to feel comfortable and I want to be a nice resting spot for a few hours,

i dont want to ever be as popular as he was, but knowing he made such a cozy yet chaotic atmosphere was something i absolutely adored. I miss his content, its silly to say I grieve him but, man.

There was something about techn-'s streams (censored cause i dont want reach from his name) that just

id sit in dms with my other friend and yap about the stream as it was happening, and while he never really addressed the chat, I felt part of those streams, i miss those streams, streams that would be so impulsive and out of nowhere filled with SO much personality and its what I aspired for

but i also remember what I loved about watching other peoples streams too, the cozy environment where I could lurk and do my own thing but still feel like a part of the conversation

There was a streamer I used to watch ALL the time, he was the only streamer i'd religiously watch

all my VODs before I was VoxelPup are all still saved privately, back when i was Reddedstone, Mochis-Mocha, Koistellations, all of them are saved so I can look back and remember the good times and not the bad times

there was times I wanted to quit, streaming for 3 years does that, burn out is real

Been thinking about why I continued streaming after rotating through so many friendships and I wanna yap, more as a personal reminder for myselt than anything else

The memory of VODs, even people I never want to associate with again have had unique memories with me which will always be special

I'm obsessed with my friends.

Wild post but I’m looking for mutuals to raid after streams, i always feel so bad that I have no where to send the pack once I’m done streaming so would people be amazing and drop their users so i can sniff yall for raids :3

Id appreciate if the sentiment was returned but i dont expect it!

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I forgot to share!! One of my incredible mods suggested the name: Datapack for all my viewers and I love it tenfold!! So hello Datapack, I am in no way the alpha of the pack but I hope I'm interesting enough to keep in view~

I think about it then i open up the program and then i get suddenly terrified of how much can be done LMAO

can't believe I'm banished for being a boy /silly /dramatic

Unironically thinking of calling my viewers 'Paw Patrol' just curious on if it'd be bad to refer to a raid as a cyber swat 🤔

What if I chose the farmers life? I'm playing Fields of Mistria today!

www.twitch.tv/voxelpup

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