Kyle Weiss

an unsettling thing I have noticed about where we are as a society is the people who show support for those on the brink of giving up are not the same people who show up for those who are trying not to, and reliably understanding the difference too late can be disastrous for either

I have spent my entire life among those who tried to beat, belittle, wear down, overpower, bargain, sexually assault, steal and manipulate my light from me--they may have dulled or dimmed it, but they never, not once owned or controlled it, and they never fucking will 💜

you might have family and gifts

I got the shared washer and dryer in my whole building to myself today

checkmate, winners 🧐🎄

read this today: "those who are not fed love on silver spoons eventually learn to lick it off the edges of knives"

so very sorry to anyone, least of all me, who relates to this 😕💜

I'm not much of a nostalgic person, I can't afford the therapy 😅

my semi-regular reminder:
you're not supposed to
heal
earn
learn
love
fight
fail
win
lose
by yourself
if things seem tougher,
they are, and it's not you
💜

did it hurt when you learned online crushes satisfy your comfort with the emotionally unavailable by making them physically unavailable instead?

doctors office always knows how to make me smile by sending texts that I have outstanding balance 🥰🫠

grief: when we lose perspective, agency, connections, that's BIG loss, as much as death--because who are we without those things superficially

at this point, I'm not sure which is worse: someone seeing your world and judging it harshly or ignoring it completely just to get what they want

it took death, of my family, my past, who I thought I was, to finally get the space to give life to who I am

it isn't less lonely, it is, however, liberating beyond what I was taught I deserved

to live is an act of rebellion; to exist, this belongs to me

this is something I can fight to protect 💜

some strangers kid told me she hates being alive, and not over anything serious but I'm like girl, be for real: I didn't ask to be here either two people just had an idea and now it's up to us to figure out why 🫠

saw a thing that said 9 out of 10 times a bad day can be solved by going to bed

the 10th time is fixating on random shit at 3am, way more satisfying and I have no circadian rhythm 🫠

did everyone remember to set their clocks to back to the blinking ":" thing 🤠

if you didn't like how it turned out, but you like how it went about: that's still very much so a win 💜

people quickly pick what to eat, but choose, often carefully, where to live: whether it's friendship or romance, make sure you're aware the difference 💜

adhd people and autistic people often get along well; in the same person, not so much

the sad part is when adhd catastrophic withdrawal meets autistic traumatic avoidance: everything that connected the two feel at more odds, lonely and guilty than ever

whether between us or in one's own self 😕💜

part of confidence isn't convincing others you know what you're doing, it's admitting when you don't

the other part is laughing about how silly you are for being such a boldass goose

do you miss them
or do you miss the idea of them?
do you miss them
or do you miss the excitement?
do you miss them
or do you miss the validation?
do you miss them
or do you miss the potential?
do you miss them
or are you missing out on yourself and making it their responsibility? 🤝💜

overheard a father tell his kid he loves being their dad

I felt tears well up, my stomach quake

when my father took his life a few months ago, I felt anger and betrayal

my loss occurred not in an instant, but over many years

grief hits different when they failed at being someone you'd miss

don't let strangers comfortable existing between their fears and dopamine fixes determine your sense of self-worth with crumbs of hope

this is a post about deleting dating apps 🤝

if you want a good connection in friendship and love, authenticity will seem counterproductive, until you realize how many of the wrong ones are no longer wasting your time

being genuine is a quiet warning and a bold invitation into your life, and those who don't accept are no longer a concern

for years, I was frustrated and stuck between 'I didn't know how good it was until I lost it' and 'I didn't realize how bad it was until I left'

fear used to split what I believed I wanted versus what I thought I deserved

until I quit being careful and started being intentional 💜

Jane Goodall managed to connect rather well with the most terrifying apes we know: she was pretty good with chimps, too
😩💜

our feather, who art in heaven, silly be thy goose

the biggest shock of my autistic experience would be this: I am NOT an innocent

I have survived horrific treatment and violence; I've had relationships and sex, sought and liked both; been through the darkest parts of nightlife, and all that entails

my kindness, my softness is a •choice•, period

my autistic anxiety means I can go from calmly taking control of an emergency situation, with poise and grace, to clenching every muscle in sweat and terror just waiting in line for a corndog

because of the first, I gladly accept the latter 💜

that was rude: I was fast asleep floating above my bed, noggin bein slapped by the ceiling fan, when jesus whispers 'haha, not you, bitch' in my ear and drops my ass

every rapture day is super annoying I stg 😩

those who remember you, those who don't; those you remember you and those you don't--the three types of people in your life

to think, l've officially outlived my entire bio-fam; from their violence, drugs/booze to taking their lives, it feels like a dark curse has been lifted and my light has remained brightly lit even when I wished it didn't

for once, I can breathe, I can see so much life in front of me 😩💜