Kyle Weiss

saw a thing that said 9 out of 10 times a bad day can be solved by going to bed

the 10th time is fixating on random shit at 3am, way more satisfying and I have no circadian rhythm 🫠

did everyone remember to set their clocks to back to the blinking ":" thing 🤠

if you didn't like how it turned out, but you like how it went about: that's still very much so a win 💜

people quickly pick what to eat, but choose, often carefully, where to live: whether it's friendship or romance, make sure you're aware the difference 💜

adhd people and autistic people often get along well; in the same person, not so much

the sad part is when adhd catastrophic withdrawal meets autistic traumatic avoidance: everything that connected the two feel at more odds, lonely and guilty than ever

whether between us or in one's own self 😕💜

part of confidence isn't convincing others you know what you're doing, it's admitting when you don't

the other part is laughing about how silly you are for being such a boldass goose

do you miss them
or do you miss the idea of them?
do you miss them
or do you miss the excitement?
do you miss them
or do you miss the validation?
do you miss them
or do you miss the potential?
do you miss them
or are you missing out on yourself and making it their responsibility? 🤝💜

overheard a father tell his kid he loves being their dad

I felt tears well up, my stomach quake

when my father took his life a few months ago, I felt anger and betrayal

my loss occurred not in an instant, but over many years

grief hits different when they failed at being someone you'd miss

don't let strangers comfortable existing between their fears and dopamine fixes determine your sense of self-worth with crumbs of hope

this is a post about deleting dating apps 🤝

if you want a good connection in friendship and love, authenticity will seem counterproductive, until you realize how many of the wrong ones are no longer wasting your time

being genuine is a quiet warning and a bold invitation into your life, and those who don't accept are no longer a concern

for years, I was frustrated and stuck between 'I didn't know how good it was until I lost it' and 'I didn't realize how bad it was until I left'

fear used to split what I believed I wanted versus what I thought I deserved

until I quit being careful and started being intentional 💜

Jane Goodall managed to connect rather well with the most terrifying apes we know: she was pretty good with chimps, too
😩💜

our feather, who art in heaven, silly be thy goose

the biggest shock of my autistic experience would be this: I am NOT an innocent

I have survived horrific treatment and violence; I've had relationships and sex, sought and liked both; been through the darkest parts of nightlife, and all that entails

my kindness, my softness is a •choice•, period

my autistic anxiety means I can go from calmly taking control of an emergency situation, with poise and grace, to clenching every muscle in sweat and terror just waiting in line for a corndog

because of the first, I gladly accept the latter 💜

that was rude: I was fast asleep floating above my bed, noggin bein slapped by the ceiling fan, when jesus whispers 'haha, not you, bitch' in my ear and drops my ass

every rapture day is super annoying I stg 😩

those who remember you, those who don't; those you remember you and those you don't--the three types of people in your life

to think, l've officially outlived my entire bio-fam; from their violence, drugs/booze to taking their lives, it feels like a dark curse has been lifted and my light has remained brightly lit even when I wished it didn't

for once, I can breathe, I can see so much life in front of me 😩💜

body dysmorphia: every metric, number, image, reflection and validation could be correct and there's still something punishably, viscerally wrong

you know other people convinced you your worth, and made you believe it

you're left with remnants of what you know is lovable, but want to destroy it

enthusiastic yeses are sexy,
smarts are attractive,
kindness is hot

but if you bring unapologetic goofyass silliness to the picture, 🫦🥰

if people leave because they only appreciate what you do for them and not what you believe and fight for, you've been given two gifts: being free of conditional relationships, and affirming your beautiful convictions

live a life of quality and not quantity; one of community and not complacency 🤝💜

you can have endless empathy and still reserve it for those who deserve it 🤝💜

turns out, zoom sends birthday emails about itself, or the anniversary you have with it--I can't really tell, but I find it creepy 🫠

whenever I get down about how I look or how my life is going, I remember Buc-ee Beaver is round with no jawline and doesn't even build dams, and everyone loves that goober 🦫💜

whenever I see a post that starts 'the neurodivergent urge to...' and lists off exclusively autistic and/or adhd traits, my urge is to remind others the term 'neurodivergent' includes many, many more neurological disorders, disease affects and brain injuries: co-opting the term helps none of us 💜

my humor is so dry, the looks I get when ppl I meet tell me they're from NYC and I enthusiastically ask 'oh where's that??' 🤠🤝

autism for me includes talking and moving uniquely: unsure if it was flirty or infantilizing, I was recently asked to repeat the way I say 'noodles,' as I was told it was cute when I say it

has anyone ever pointed out or criticized when you use unique words, or say them differently?

if someone finally contacts you because all their other options aren't available, no they didn't

stop accepting crumbs when someone else is hungry 💜

bring people into your world who love how you navigate, not who judge how you participate 😁💜

my love for plants versus my autistic sensory hell that is daylight: a personal war sonnet 🌱🫠