Claire Elizabeth

At least you got a response and not just prompts for "continue". Yesterday's session could have been replaced with a wall 😮‍💨

Woke up dysphoric and tossed on old clothes. It turns out I lost so much weight that I couldn't see myself in them anymore. I got changed this afternoon and... I'm me again.
Perspectives do a lot

A grey domestic cat lies in loaf position next to a table leg on a patterned rug. He is looking at the camera with his mouth open, as the photographer caught him mid-yawn

Tom sat by my desk until I looked at him. Then I got an earful 🙀

I'm grateful for HRT, and possibly getting surgeries and changing my appearance and changing my voice and...

No matter what I change, there is permanent damage from the wrong puberty. Nobody should be forced through that with our current medicine.

Protect🛡 trans🏳️‍⚧️ kids👪, please! I'm begging you!

the first time i admitted being wrong and apologized i should have realized i'm not a cis man

I'm hoping it's not a safety issue, and if it you should ignore this, but...

Be yourself. Everywhere and anytime it's safe. "Boymode" is a shackle attached to a ball of other peoples' expectations. Do the things you want and need to for yourself, *as yourself*

🏳️‍⚧️💪

I think "unpleasantly affirming" is a term that applies here. Congratulations?

I regret having therapy on Monday and EV injections on Wednesday mornings. Maybe it's time to shift the injections?

I'm a mess on Mondays, too

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I tried to get google maps to give me a transit route from an NJTransit station to the doctor I'm going to see in NYC. That was 15 minutes ago. I'm guessing the routing system can't cope with public transit over longer distances or high density routes? Either way, it's broken.

I'm happy you were able to realize that. It's a difficult thing to come to terms with. 🫂

I don't claim to know your relationship, but "No" is a complete answer. Especially if your event is for yourself!

I expected the 100% trans score.
I did NOT expect the rest of it...

Who knows? They labeled it "suspicious behavior"

I'm still 6'1" after shrinking, and I'm still going to wear heels. It's ok to be tall 💖

Except trying to find clothes. Tall sweater dresses apparently don't exist!

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I'm banned from discord for daring to use firefox on linux with umatrix during signup. I didn't even get to finish account verification. I wish we could find community without using the tools of our opressors, but it looks like everyone in my area is on whatsapp and insta.

Trying to get back to being tea-heavy this week. Just the one PSL this morning, and now it's time for the third cup of tea.

Spouse: "I think you're shorter!"
Me: "Impossible, I didn't shrink."
*tape measure session*
Me: "You were right, again."

I shrank a full inch, somehow.

I just turned 40 and started gender transition. You don’t win a lifetime achievement award for making everyone happy but yourself. Whatever you’re putting off, just do it. Live for you.

Oh, right. Monday. Due for my E shot soon but not soon enough. That's where the tears and heavy introspection are coming from 🤷‍♀️

Guess I'm re-watching B5 again.

Related; I wonder if that order holds true in current issues. How many fascist politicians were already closeted before hating us vs cracking their egg after being obsessed?

I would be lost without this and my queer matrix channels. It's impossible to find us in real spaces near me, so this was a lifeline. I would be upset to see it go.

Feeling the same! More weekend, please! It was the first really good one in far too long

> Gets the job done tho

If I'm not producing T anymore, then I'm willing to try it 🙃

A grey domestic cat lies curled into a ball on an extended couch, next to it's human wearing a transgender pride blanket

Tom joined me on the couch while we watch Star Trek: The Next Generation

We visited a friend of ours who is battling brain cancer today. A few of us got together to snack, drink (non-alcoholic) wine and knit! I learned some new skills today and just sat around the table. No phone, no laptop, no obligations; just fiber crafts and nice people.
I like the knitting circle! 🧶

Two scoops of pumpkin spice ice cream on top of a slice of pumpkin spice bread

Pumpkin spice ice cream on pumpkin bread

For dinner

Because healthy meals are for people with the brainpower to plan them, and I have none left after this weekend 🤷‍♀️

Do I have to be after 3k? Can I volunteer?

A photo of a black mug on a bamboo desk. Visible is masala spice powder on whipped cream, covering the coffee

A fresh cup of peaberry coffee with whipped cream and a dusting of masala spices