Kendra

A brown rabbit standing on a wooden beam in a grassy yard, with a weathered wooden climbing structure in the background.

@amisometimes.bsky.social I always space out before j think to take a picture. However today’s visitor stayed awhile, and I was able to get a decent picture.

A bowl of Japanese curry udon noodles topped with crispy breaded shrimp tempura. The curry includes thick udon noodles, round golden potatoes, and sliced carrots in a rich brown curry broth. The bowl is placed on a wooden surface.

Tonight for dinner we have curry with udon and shrimp tempura.

Me: Maybe I will see if I can get my hair cut this week while Addie is at her dad’s.
Salon: Sorry, Rose is working on a movie set in Miami all of this week and most of next week.

Addie:You know what’s refreshing after a long summers day? Grapes.
Me: It’s only 1:30 😐

A nighttime photo of a back door with several packages left outside, despite a posted sign asking delivery drivers to deliver all packages to the front door. The door has a small pet door at the bottom and a sign that includes logos for Amazon, UPS, FedEx, and USPS. Three packages—two large cardboard boxes and one brown padded envelope, still wet from the passing shower—are propped against the door and a brick wall. A green garden hose is coiled on the ground nearby.

Me: Weird, Amazon says my package was delivered but didn’t take a picture so I could find it…
Amazon:

here's @tehkendra.bsky.social and her sweet daughter Addie as MLP ponies and i added some hidden easter eggs into Kendra's jacket. hope y'all like it <3

I’m gonna stop ranting now. I don’t even know if what I said makes any sense. I would proof read it, but then I would chicken out and not post this. Then these thoughts would just keep festering inside me, which cannot be good for me.

I am not wanting to hurt myself or abandon my life. I love my little family with bduluth and Addie, but I can’t help wanting more. I am just very sad and lonely. I feel like no one really sees me, but I am scared people would hate me if they saw the real me.

I say all because right now I feel like the real me is not wanted or needed. That if I were to vanish from the various social circles I am in no one would notice or care. I’ve already been gone months in some, and no one has seemed to notice.

I have been called heartless for how easily I remove people from my life. Because as terrifying as being alone is, it is better than changing to better suit the needs of someone else.

I spent decades changing myself to make those around me happy. I would change so keep people in my life. I changed so I wouldn’t go back to being alone.

Allow me a moment to cry into the void. I don’t want pity or anything. I just need to say this.
Growing up I was hated by everyone I knew. The closest thing to kindness I remember as a kid was being ignored.

A homemade meal served in a round, shallow bowl on a black countertop. The meal consists of glazed barbecue pork belly pieces with a dark, caramelized sauce, a portion of creamy mashed potatoes with a slightly textured surface, and grilled zucchini spears that are golden brown with grill marks. The background includes a tablet with a keyboard, a bottle of oil, and other kitchen items slightly out of focus.

Dinner!

A middle-aged man with light brown skin, short graying hair, and thin metal-framed glasses takes a close-up selfie in front of the Mona Lisa painting at the Louvre Museum. He has a neutral expression, wearing a dark gray zip-up sweater over a blue shirt. The Mona Lisa is visible in the background, framed on a dark wall behind a wooden barrier, with part of the museum’s wooden floor also in view. A portion of another person’s hair and shoulder is seen on the left side of the frame.

My parents are in Paris, and my dad called us to show the view from the Eiffel Tower. Now I pose a question, did my dad call me, his loving eldest daughter, or bduluth? I’ll give you a hint, it wasn’t me.
Bonus: here is a picture my dad sent me of himself with some smiling lady in the background. 😂

STREAM SCHEDULE!🐰
Lots of animation progress being done today, might even get to do special effects on Wednesday if I finish 2ndary animation today!

Twitch!: twitch.tv/Bouncy2D
Join Da Bounce House!: discord.gg/MZqfzCEeNV

A lit outdoor grill with a pan of sautéed vegetables, including bell peppers and onions. A wooden spatula rests in the pan, and the grill knobs are visible in the foreground. The scene suggests cooking during a power outage.

A close-up portrait of a person outdoors at dusk or night. They are wearing glasses and bundled up in a thick, knitted scarf. The lighting is soft, and the background shows faint outlines of leafless trees.

Well, dinner won’t finish itself. Btw, yes I only have a scarf and thin hoodie on. Thanks for asking.

A dimly lit room during a power outage. The room features a fireplace emitting a warm glow, illuminating nearby objects faintly. A Christmas tree is visible in the background, and furniture, including a table and chairs, is scattered around. The surrounding area is mostly dark, with limited details visible.

Me: I’m totally gonna stream tonight.
Alabama:
Also don’t judge me, I’ll take my tree down soon, probably

The image shows two trays lined with parchment paper, each holding colorful frozen grapes on toothpicks. The grapes are coated in a powdered substance, giving them a sugary, frosty appearance. The coating appears to be multicolored, with hues of blue, pink, yellow, orange, and purple, creating a vibrant display. The trays are placed on a wooden surface, with pens and other small items visible in the background.

We made those candy grapes that kept appearing in my YouTube shorts.
Addie: 8/10
Bduluth: 8.5/10
Me: 7.5/10

It has finally happened. It’s time to have the ‘not everyone in an online co-op game actually wants to play, some just want to be massive jerks’ talk with Addie. Thankfully she removed herself from the situation.

A young child smiles brightly while standing inside a Build-A-Bear Workshop store. They are holding two stuffed animals: one resembling a blue munchlax and the other resembling Riolu. Next to them stands a large, costumed bear mascot wearing a white shirt that says "The stuff you love."

The same child is outdoors holding a large, fluffy piece of cotton candy in pastel blue and pink colors. They appear to be mid-blink, and the cotton candy takes up much of the foreground, with trees and a building visible in the background.

We went to big mall yesterday. As you can see from the pictures, Addie had a great time.

Bigfoot has been moved to the Encouragement Corner on @bduluth.bsky.social whiteboard.

I could probably peel it off and put it on his white board by his desk. Then Bigfoot could seduce him while he works. If I do this, I will post an update.

This is what I see when I look up from my seat at the table…. I have no one to blame but myself. I bought this sticker, and I placed it there. Why? Because I am a bad judge of size, and I thought this would fit on bduluth’s tower with the other silly stickers I get him.

So who want to help me wrap gifts? I haven’t wrapped any.

A large tray of star-shaped pasties topped with a dollop of red jam sits on a kitchen counter covered with foil. The pastries are neatly arranged in rows, and the background features a dining area and kitchen appliances. A box of sugar and other small items are visible on the countertop.

Part one of my holiday baking is done. The cookie cutter claimed to be a snowflake, but let’s be real they are more like stars. Also, they taste amazing.

Me: I want 10 ears of corn.
Kroger: Hey we don’t have 10 individual ears of corn. So we will sub out with these 4 packs.
Me: Okay, I can handle an extra 2
Kroger: Here’s 10 four packs of corn.
Me: *buried under a mountain of corn*

Day 6 of our annual Pokémon Nuzlocke challenge is LIVE!

Come and watch as we make our way to the 6th & 7th gyms. Will we lose any Pokémon along the way? Hopefully not.

twitch.tv/EndyD20

#Pokemon #ratJam #ratGOD #Mummy

Addie had her school holiday party today. Though the highlight for me was running into her first grade teacher in the halls. I adore her. And yes, we hugged.

Someone come save me from the endless laundry, I offer snacks and pizza.