Joseph the Gray

What the fuck is going on here? This country is turning into Gilead every day.

And while we are here, fuck any Christian nationalist! You are judgmental, lack empathy, and are nothing like Jesus.

This administration is precisely what Jesus preached against.

Close-minded, selfish pigs!

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I know I’m sharing a lot. I’m a verbal processor, and this is how I heal.

In poetry, music, dance, spellwork, wrestling, tai chi, movement, sex, play, adventure, wandering.

Welcome to my diary. I appreciate those who stay and welcome broken and forgotten things here.

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In short…

A knight’s word is their bond. If they break it, they are no knight to you. Guard your peace as you would a sacred flame. 🔥🫂

Keep shining 🤘🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈🌎

I can grieve the connection and honor myself.

I can miss the good and refuse to return to a place that kept me small.

Because I am the only keeper of my light.

And no one can put it out. 🩵🧚🏼‍♂️⚔️

Whether it was to avoid including me in a family that shamed us, or to dodge a conversation, or simply because I wasn’t a priority — the result is the same. Even in grief, we now share…

Respect is not situational.
Boundaries are not optional.
And my time, my love, my presence are not second-rate.

Some truths are hard to swallow:
When someone’s actions don’t match their words, believe the actions.

I was told it was important we saw each other — then I was stood up, without warning, without care.
It hurt. It still hurts. But this was the pattern.

Here’s the thing: I don’t need to know why.

A blue razz slurpee on a day that is more humidddd than it is hot, just tickles me blue in the best of ways 🩵

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Just bought a whole new set of cock rings and a new singlet for a lil cabin trip.

Hehe cheers 🧚🏼‍♂️🩵

Maybe this is when I launch my onlyfans?

Having a middle name that was your ex’s name is funny, cause I still have to think about your toxic, selfish behavior every time I enter in my card info.

But then I’m like, i survived and came out hotter, kinder, and better for it, so absolutely i deserve to treat myself.

#grateful 🫰

For balance and to keep hope burning. And if you are wondering why, it is because I almost lost myself.

These words wouldn’t have existed if I hadn't tried. And I’m so glad I put that weapon down that day and didnt turn on myself.

Darkness doesn’t have to last forever. 💜🩵🫂

I’ll be publishing a 14-day guide that I made to help myself at the end of this month. It will be free for anyone interested in trying something other than the drones of therapy and self-help, which are always focused on positivity.

This is a toolkit that brings dark and light together.

The world is broken, battered, and bruised. If you see more and you don’t know what to do or you feel overwhelmed, find ways to ground yourself, to put anger, pain, and sadness into beautiful things.

Make.
Write.
Dance.
Play.
Self-care.
community.

Alchemize it if you have to.

So just know, more to cum and for those with multiple personalities, autism, and mental health struggles like PTSD and Limerence.

I am proof there is another side to darkness. There is freedom and light; we simply have to claim both. The totality of our self, and realize we were never broken. 🫡

I know many of you come for not my mind but my body; in many ways, I use my body to get people to listen…

And while I plan to share more sexy knighthood booty and country boy tiddies.

I am working on a toolkit for reclaiming your mind, heart, and energy after limerence and BPD attachment.

Man on a train

Man throwing a love sign on a train

I love trainz

Joseph the gray working on his windego tattoo tonight

Knight taking a sippy from som juice

Reminder, there is no cure for narcissism; you have to protect yourself!

Stay strong and keep your peace; they didn’t care about yours.

They simply mirrored your love. 🤼

Onward 🫂

—with a brave and true heart

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But now…
rest.
make.
become.

Just remember —
there was a time when you weren’t even looking
and love found you anyway,
knocking the wind from your chest.

You held it for so, so long.
Longer than most would dare.
That’s not weakness —
that’s your character.

You believe.
You are brave.
And there will be a time for love again.

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I hope you claim it, with or without them, and especially without Mother Nature's permission.

She wants you to find it, but can not give it to you.

Yet it is always ours for the making.

Hope is the torment of man, it is also our liberation and freedom.

There is no peace in this land, but we can make peace within our minds.

It is a choice. Only you can claim it, and when all hope is lost, it is yours to reclaim.

No riddle, just truth. Ours.

No one makes it out alive.

So why not try to make it better for the rest?

We all deserve peace.

Each, if asked, points the blame at the other and calls the other a foe. Mainly if they survive in victory, but where is victory when the blood cools?

Fathers eat their young, mothers turn on their own, siblings poison one another to claim what is “theirs,” while friends step on those they envy with hatred for those brighter and freer than they are.

I used to wish for peace, as if Mother Nature would provide it.

I've seen Nature's mirror shows beauty, but behind it, also rot, death, despair—and it comes for us all one day.

If I make it past September 26, then yes sirrrrr, we beat that damn thing 🫡 and I plan on it hehe 🧚🏻‍♂️

Fuck zuck

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At the rennfair last year

I’m planning my “I survived brain tumor surgery” trip for November

I’ve always wanted to go to Crater Lake and Portland. So that is where I’ll anchor.

I’m thinkn cabin in the woods, men, faye folk or queers. Hot tub 🤘

Would love to connect with any Portland/Oregon folk— let’s open a portal! 🧚🏼‍♂️*