Lizard Brain

if you're still reading, thank you. i don't want to come off as pandering for sympathy. i'm doing okay, i promise. i just miss a lot of parts of my old life and don't want to lose them. i miss you guys. i have missed you. and i wanted to tell you that.

thank you friends. i'll be back soon 🌸

for now, i will probably continue to quietly lurk in the bsky shadows, reading threads and retweeting the occasional bakubowl smut.

but eventually—and i can't say when but hopefully before the US collapses—i'll come back outside to play. and i'll write some fic and post some fun dumb shit again.

but i have realized that i do not want that to be a state of forever for me.

i /want/ to write fic again. i want to be active in fandom. i want to engage with you and read things and scream about them and then go write more things and make other people scream.

i want this. but, i need a minute.

i wanted to post this because i have been taking active steps to heal and recover and in that process, i have had to be nicer to myself and more honest about what i'm feeling and what i want in the end.

right now, i don't know if i can write anything outside of ad copy and the occasional poem.

i'm still grieving of course, and having to balance life in a very emotionally chaotic time for reasons pertaining not only to having dead parents but also living in america in 2025 (pls god make it stop)

BUT i didn't wanna post this just to apologize and say "ill be better" only to disappear again

stagnation has been an obvious result of these circumstances, but i'd be lying if i said i wasn't also somewhat indulging in it. when you're stuck it's easier to shrug and go "oh damn i guess i can't move, oh well" than expend emotional energy wriggling yourself free.

any creative energy i had left had to go into my job, but i wasn't managing that efficiently either and tried to use it as an escape and excuse to not deal with my feelings. it's only been after my mom's death and a few mild interventions from friends that i've been able to realize that.

but last spring, my mom was given less than a year to live, and she died a few months ago.

so these two events in very short succession drained a lot out of me, whether i admitted it at the time or not. i don't think i had enough time to fully recover from one loss before another was at my door.

i have not been super active on here or really anywhere for some time, same goes with updating fic or writing at all. i would say for the past like 2ish years, i've written very little and have hardly updated anything i've started.

some of you know my dad died 2 years ago, almost 3 now.

hey yall, i feel like it's been a second and i wanna get some things of my chest (short irl 🧵)

Happy New Year! 🎊

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🐕‍🦺 Sit Boy!

#Inuyasha #kagome #fanart

the ghost of bitchmas present

the shirt was a (thirst) trap and Kacchan fell for it

3 Panel Comic. The time is 5:42am, Ochako is shown trying to sleep in bed while loud rustling and banging sounds are happening off screen. She progressively gets angrier. The last panel has Katsuki slamming the bedroom door open, carrying a basket of laundry. He's muttering and grumbling to himself.

#kacchako Idea given to me by @bcxsanson.bsky.social thank you for your hilarious story!

Too Early, No Sleep...

Comic Thread
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let's all suffer together, friends 😌

Last drawing I did before that extra...
#Bkdk #MHA

THE LYRICS DON'T LIE

need someone to make an AMV right fuckin now

bakugou you deserved better #mhaspoilers #mha31

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最棒的!

Meggfarts

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One and Oni 👹

#genshin #itto

Lest #Arcane

good night

#jayvik #arcane

#Arcane

a man is laying on a couch crying with his eyes closed . ALT: a man is laying on a couch crying with his eyes closed .

Arcane Season 2

so arcane season 2 huh fellas

omg that's me! thanks for the share! 💕

#outofcontextkchk #nsfw

“Well, you’re not the one who got a goddamn boner in the middle of class.”

“Thought you said you didn’t get a boner—“

“Oh fuck off, Cheeks.”

Ochako found herself at an absolute loss for words. Talking to Bakugou was like trying to talk politics with a wooden spoon.