Boomtown64

Be a tough couple of months, but I'll get back to it soon. Thanks for your advice .

I failed today.
I can't do cemeteries or tears.
I can't do the angel who watches over, the peace and the quiet.
I can't do the day they would have been 35.
I will visit again .
But today I failed Matthew and Daniel and possibly being a dad.
Tough gig today.

The anniversary of the day that made me someone else and who I am today is tomorrow.

35 years on and this weekend still fucking hurts. Not sure who I could have been.

Toughest weekend of the year even 35 years later. One last cemetery visit Sunday. It is time to give it up until July when it might draw me back.

So changing gym routine. Kettle bell warm up. 20 minutes on machines. 3 minutes rowing which will increase soon to five and then gentle 10 minute walk. Lots of bit can be increased or settled down. More pulls can be added or increase d. And cardio can move around. Happy with changes.

She asked me to help her kill herself. Not a thing I could do. Not an ask for help.

They have to choose. You have to help yourself.

She asked me to help her to die. Not my thing.

I can't save anyone, they have to save themselves.

Be accountable. Find a way back. Find a structure. I have asked her for three pictures everyday. Up and washed for breakfast. A picture of her dinner. And a dated picture of her local store to show she has been outside. Small steps and I am a prick.

She asked me to help her kill her self. That is not something I could do. She has to show that courage.

I got in that position and could jump. I worked it out step by step. Financially and then joining a gym. I have only asked her to find a structure to the day . Washing eating and getting outside.

If I friend asks you help them commit suicide. What should you do?
Any advice is helpful.
I said no and challenged them to become accountable.
Help please.

February.
February over 35 year took too much and is too hard. In different ways it took my first two children, which in time led to the blessing of three more children and three grandchildren. But the weight of loss still feels too much.
I look forward to March first.

As a pharmacist when I give a patient a huge bag of medication and notice they are my age or younger.

Not something I had expected, just very hurtful for the people who were omitted.

Moving on, tax paid, live music at least once this weekend but could be twice. In a lonely place but ok.

I'm fine. I have bills to pay off and to focus on for now.

Tough week, my wife kid s and grandkids were deliberately missed of their my wife stepmother list of family at her funeral. My kids chose to leave during the service. I went back in after the coffin left to stand up for them.

Thank you.

A really horrible week. Worst week as a parent for a very long time and I have buried two children.

I won't leave a debt so will work to pay it off

I have no reason to continue. One more step

If European countries boycott or threaten to boycott Scotland should be part of it. The World Cup should be moved today!!!

I chose to go back in after the service finished and the coffin had left and very calmly pointed out the 'error '. Got sworn at and threatened.
Walked away.

The two children of my wife's stepmother chose to leave two of the stepchildren and their children/grandchildren off her list of kin. My kids and wif chose to leave along with other relatives

So today is a let's make a scene at a funeral type of day.
' Remember it's a funeral' said the lady from the Co-op.

@daisyh75.bsky.social My grandson was 10 yards away from the Pars goal at EEP. Sent video of him from TV. Hope the Pars get a good home tie next.

Anyone to chat here?