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gonna figure out her weird ear hood thing if its the last thing I do

doodles of crownslayer. the main one has her with a surprised look on her face and her ears perked all the way up while still in the ear-sleeves of her hood. the second, smaller doodle has her looking more disappointed, with her ears flumping down back into their usual state

getting used to drawing her again (immediately starts fucking around with her ears)

Neat, burn everything down, why the fuck not?

okay so like 89% of my complaints about the mommy issue bullshit seem to stem from one guy named guntrip

nobody thinks or knows how to consider it because there are no fingers to point or people to blame. it is just an natural, if violent, phenomenon that hurt and terrified me that was unfortunately directly associated with other human beings and proximity to them

I still maintain that it was my childhood emetophobia that formed many of the personality issues I have now. even if the phobia itself has diminished, the trajectory it sent me on was already set in motion

not even just about the nuclear family tbh its always about that damn mom. this is a 2013 paper so it should not be THAT antiquated.

banging on the windows. sometimes relationships and social development matter outside the nuclear family or monogamous romantic relationships. maybe people aren't meant to rely only on these two modes of social connection. for some reason no one wants to think about that though

I will say this everytime I read these papers but man it is always so alienating when everything is always traced back to familial trauma or neglect. as if being deprived from other social situations and developments is nothing and familial development is ALL that matters ever

Sense of superiority and perfectionism. Schizoid se;f-sufficiency is usually buffered buy a strong sense of superiority over others. The sense of superiority functions as a rationale for maintaining a safe distance from others who might activate dependency conflicts (Guntrip, 1969). Seeing himself as being above others eliminates the possibility that others might be able to provide nurturance or support. Because it terrifies the schizoid to be dependent, he strives to place himself above being understood or benefited

by acquaintance to others. Schizoid personalities assume pseudo-adult roles and responsibilities with ease, and are often aware of these abilities from a young age (Klein, 1995). By becoming an adult, the schizoid does not have to endure the pain of psychological growth and renders his teachers and parents irrelevant. For the same reasons that he is constantly caught up in perfectionism, endeavoring in this way to be beyond critique and without need for feedback or assistance.

don't say damn

digitalcommons.pepperdine.edu/etd/413/

The schizoid is also known for cultivating special relationships with others. By making the object feel special through their attunement and responsiveness, the schizoid makes himself indispensible and beyond reproach (Kahn, 1974). The schizoid's ease in adaptation to the environment and to picking up signals from the outside world are tools that allow the process of identification to take place. Much like the cihldren Alice Miller described in Drama of the Gifted Child (Miller, 1981), schzoid children are hypersensitive and hyper-responsive to their mothers, learning to anticipate and meet mother's needs while hiding away their own. The schizoid seeks to create a relationship that is free of hostility and in which both partners always get along. The schizoid doesn't see why life should ever be unpleasant or conflictual and hipes that it will be possible to have a relationship without ever exerting himself or having to put effort or work in.

Schizoid personalities tend to feel powerful in their ability to respond to the needs of the other (Kahn, 1974). The concept of symbiotic omnipotence refers to a prolonged association between the schizoid and another person characterized by enmeshment and lack of differentiation, from which the schizoid comes to feel effective and in control. Symbiotic omnipotence precludes actual connectedness and harkens back to earliest childhood when mother and child are, of necessity, moving in unison. Kahn (1974) identified several factors that characterize the phenomenon of symbiotic omnipotence, including weak ego development, the failure to harness and use aggressive energy (anger), exaggerated awareness of the feelings of others, severe difficulty distinguishing the self from the other, and the feeling that responsiveness to others is a powerful talent.

sighs

Clinical lore abounds with observations about hysterical-schizoid couples, about their misunderstandings and pursuer-distancer problems, about each party's inability to imagine what that the other sees one as powerful and demanding rather than as one sees oneself--that is, fearful and needy. Just as the hysterically organized woman idealizes the capacity of the schzoid man to stand alone, to 'speak truth to power,' to contain affect, to tap into levels of creative imagination that she can only dream of, the schzoid man admires her warmth, her comfort with others, her empathy, her grace in expressing emotion without awkwardness or shame, her capacity to

experience her own creativity in relationship. To whatever extent opposites attract, hysterical and schizoid individuals tend to idealize each other--and then drive each other crazy when their respective needs for closeness and space come into conflict. Whereas the schizoid person fears being endangered by drives, impulses, affects, and other internal states. Both types of personality have also been associated with trauma of the cumulative or strain variety. Both are almost certainly more right- than left-brained. Both suffer a consuming sense of hunger, which the schizoid person may try to tame and the hysterical person may sexualize. If I am right about these similarities, then some of the magic between schizoid and hysterical individuals is based on convergence rather than opposition

oh I'm sure

Chinchou->Politoed
#pixelart
#pokemon

Hoppip->Girafarig
#pokemon
#pixelart

Pineco->Ursaring
#pokemon
#pixelart

BONK!

#pico8 #indiegame #indiedev #psuedo3d

A clay fairy kisses a paper flower. The background has two fairies framing a cat inspired gargoyle

The Crush, another piece sold at Further Confusion 2025 🏵️

was originally going to make smaller connected ears but the tiles floating there before I did anything looked kinda awesome so I just kept it like that instead

not blender but I had some downtime during work where I could whip this up but I kind of went more in a mouse direction and then also kind of part shrew after a bit rather than a rat

Jonathan Graves #1984 rb.gy/n74bhe

||She feels like the target of some sick joke. An inkling of helplessness suddenly worms its way into her mind.||

this shader made my steam deck run like shit but it was all worth it because I love that rainbow shimmer. I had so much fun playing it that I kept doing that instead of finishing it lol

Screenshot of a large humanoid figure from the game Baroque. Their dialogue reads: "Are you suffering because you don't know who you are? Just accept that you're nobody, you'll feel better. So don't come back."

A screenshot of a strange barely humanoid figure in Baroque. Their dialogue reads: "Just before the Great Heat Wave, the Sense Spheres cried out. "You're tearing us apart! Stop it! It's already too late, the Dabar Fusion has completed! If we're torn apart now, the world is going to become distorted!"

A screenshot from Baroque of the god. The text "Don't go mad" is repeated over and over until it covers the screen.

I need to play baroque again AAAUUUUHH

Industrial, caged walls, grey flat walls, all become more red towards the bottom

Tiled wall, octahedron light source, several pillars

Mechanical parts hanging from the roof, the floor has many holes

Water draining into a hallway

Environments in Baroque (saturn)....

stared at browt so much i had a vision

💥💥💥

"I should have lost the ability to experience pain, but when I see you, I begin to feel a sensation in my chest which feels like it could be suffering."