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i hate being ignored more than anything

feelings are so hard .. so hard

Zwei Katzen im Sessel

Noch ruhen sie sich aus, aber gleich …

i feel like i’ve done something wrong but im not sure what and i don’t think i should ask but i. feel so upset and sad nad stressed i hate to do things wrong im so sad i’m going to go live in a hole forever and ever it’s ok

i feel

feelings are hard and confusing and they make me sad i wish things made more sense i wish i knew what to do

idk what i want but probably something

everyone ever who has ever existed hates me they all look at me and say boo ivan we all hate you and this is true because my sources told me

i hate the fact that i’m posting this here rn so much oh my freak i just feel so devoid of anything good i’m just like i’m just there .. in regards to like everything when when do i become important when do people when do i become something when do i stop making myself feel nauseous by existing

i hate myself so so much like i hate to say this actually because i don’t want to like fish for reassurance or anything but oh my god everything i do fills me with disgust i might be the most selfish person alive

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mediocrity is scary and i don’t think i will ever feel loved

taking sugar baby applicatiosnb

honestly if u think about it monagomy is so WEIRD like why r we brought up the believe that one singular person will be our one true love who will answer all our problems actually no its as simple as, do you love these people??

truth

life if it were perfect (me being charlie)

'ive met loads of polyam ppl and it never works out!' have you considered this might be because they WERE ALL 13 YEARS OF AGE

oh my god i just accidentally found a load of old irls spotifuy accpounts and WHY R SOME OF THEM SO COOL OH MY GOD I FUMBLED

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when i find someone to shit talk ruikasa with

also i’m bad at words so i always just feel like a stupid idiot and i can’t express myself at all and i just yeah i can’t explain why people are hurting me so much so yeah so yeah so like yeah yeah like so yeah i guess that’s it for me chat

i’m allergic to communication bc it makes me feel so nauseous and sometimes i so genuinely scared ill throw up so i avoid it at all costs

ohh i jumped into the air with glee and perhaps i might have even clicked my heels

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changed his pfp but didn’t reply what episode do i DIE

my least woke opinion is that meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow meow

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i hate dry people

doing things for my own sake is so entirely boring i get no pleasure out of anything other than the knowledge that the effort i’m putting in now is benefiting my relationship with someone

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tbh i miss having a bf bc i just want to put all my time and effort and money into someone like having a person is the only thing that motivates me even if it’s fake ig

NOOO no twin dw this is just something i need to fix in my brain i think

anyway conclusion i want to date someone but in a platonic way and also permanently and also idc if u have other relationships as long as u come back to ME . and also. i know this is what some may refer to as a queer platonic relationship. BUT I HATEEE THAT WORD UGHHH

relationship with u?? and like before i thought i was insanely jealous and like ive always thought ughh im such a bad person because i want to isolate them BUT I DONT I JUST LIKE LIKE i’ve realised IDGAF WHO U TALK TO I JUST need to be reassured that im important to u

and this is the thing that has always tripped me up when i’ve really really cared about people bc im like stuck in this endless loop of i don’t feel romantic feelings towards you! and i hate when people act like i do because it just feels so wrong! buttttt why do i need to have this claim of a