Branwyn Jobes ☕️

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Cartoon Network Studios has released four shorts made in collaboration with Exceptional Minds, a non-profit Los Angeles-based academy and studio preparing young adults on the autism spectrum for careers in Hollywood.

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Please support the Greater Fredericksburg Walk this fall to help #stopsuicide Please support the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention to help save lives and bring hope to those affected by suicide. Donate or register to walk!

This upcoming weekend im going to be participating in a Walk for Suicide Prevention, if anyone can/wants to donate to a worthy cause here's my fundraising link.

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...because it means that someone can tell when im gone...im worried that I could disappear tomorrow and no one would care...that no one would miss me...and feeling like that...in crowded rooms...is the loneliest feeling in the world

...I'll be alone again and.....ive basically been trying to wear myself out most days in hope that in the quiet of the night....that the harsh voices will be too tired to talk. I know it sounds selfish but I like it when people say they miss me

Recently, ive had the pleasure of being part of a discord server thats been helping ease those feelings but...I'm still dealing with those same harsh voices in my head telling me that once their patience runs out...

I miss not feeling so sad, so alone all the time...I miss not wondering when the next person is going to get tired of me

I know that I'll be okay eventually but.....seeing these memories kinda hurts because....I miss the times where I wasn't always stuck in my own head...where I wasn't always waiting for the other shoe to drop

In this process ive been discovering memories both good and bad....and...its been a lot. Family pictures, homemade cds from friends no longer in my life amd other memories that aren't always pleasant

Ive been trying to clean my bedroom so that its completely my space(used to share it with my younger brother but he no longer lives at home)

This means that a lot of old stuff(nothing biohazardous) has accumulated and not been thrown out...until now

So....for the past several years, I have been dealing with a lot of mental health issues and its lead me to not take care of keeping my bedroom as clean as I should

TW/CW: Neurodivergent brain stuff,depression, unhealthy coping, mild hoarding tendencies

Sorry in advance but this is going to be a kinda long post....

My thoughts exactly

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Would anyone be able to help me out with $25-30? I'm trying to avoid bouncing. If you can help without getting yourself in a bind my Venmo and PayPal are below.

Venmo - venmo.com/code?user_id...

Paypal - paypal.me/deimospoe26?...

YouTube video by I'm Happy You're Here I'm Happy You're Here: Anxiety!

youtu.be/h5SavjMFRLg?...

Im not as worried about food as I live with my parents, and they help with that.

stuff like money for Lyft/Ubers to go socialize, coffee/tea, escapes(like gaming, social events, etc. if anyone is able to provide a little bit of help, here is my Venmo.

venmo.com/code?user_id...

Im really struggling right now. Haven't been able to find any work, and while I'm waiting to see if I can get SSI, I'm struggling to afford the things that help out with my mental and emotional health

Not sure if anyone still plays on it but here is my Switch friend code. Im hoping to get back into some kind of playing games....I really miss it and would love to play with friends.

SW-5137-6832-1707

Coming soon: Vampair: The Animated Pilot Engulf yourself in a world of Musical Darkness…

I cannot begin to describe how excited I am for this project. Been a fan of Voltaire since high school.

www.kickstarter.com/projects/142...

Tried to figure out the best way to take a picture to match the mood with the poem.

I'm sorry I'm so needy
I'm sorry I'm not always in good spirits
I'm sorry, I take up so much space
But please….don't leave me behind
©Branwyn Jobes

The ache of loneliness

Please don’t leave me behind
I'm still here
Please don’t forget about me
I want to belong somewhere

Please don’t leave me
The loneliness hurts so much
Please don't go away
My thoughts are not good company and are vicious.

But it also causes heartache that is harsh and can be hard to heal from

I miss you, I wish I could have those times back….but I know I can't.
© Branwyn Jobes

I miss making memories with my parents and siblings, I miss the happy calls of my pets

I miss sleeping easily and soundly
I miss feeling okay
I miss feeling safe

Nostalgia is a beast that hurts and helps in equal measure
It allows us to revive the good times ..

Time and places, people and things from days long gone echo like ripples on a pond in my mind

My heart aches like sore wounds that have not fully healed, my body

I long for the times where fear and anger, sadness and hurt are not constant companions of mine.
weary from tears shed

The Melancholy of Nostalgia

Grey clouds drenching everything in a slow heaving drizzle that weighs down upon your shoulders bringing you to your knees

Radiohead achingly reverbs from a tinny speaker, adding a melancholic nostalgia to the air