SpicySpaceSnake

unfinished assets will probably be released at a later point, whenever I feel like finishing them or releasing them unfinished

my completed visual assets for AA are now released as well - Scrapstone, the new Doomstone; Charged Scrap Plate, the new Doomite; and Drone Dispensary: Delta, taking the place of Saggitarius

from late 2022 too,, I feel old already

#Terraria #pixelart #ドット絵

to the rest of you... get your shit together. this is humiliating. your response has been shameful, and you've not bothered to change *and* continued trying to diminish me.

you may keep the little art I shared. but what I fought hardest for, my writing, you've haven't earned

I wanted simply to have a reason to continue doing what I did; to continue being more active, as was requested of me. improvement is gradual, yes; basic decency and respect is not

thank you to the select few who never made me feel unwelcome. I will stay in contact

I'm out of energy and patience. I can't convince someone that there's a problem after laying it out, only to get, verbatim, "from what I see you are listened to". from the director. members are no better. intent doesn't matter, I'm telling you how it feels; please show sympathy

what hurt the most, though, was my penultimate message getting no response for two days. a direct address to the leadership, expressing that words aren't enough and my trust has been violated, that the project has been causing me stress,, to be met with nothing from the target

all I asked for was humanity, to be treated as an equal, a fellow teammate; to be shown that I wasn't just noise

only three people gave any kind of genuinely caring answer. one was the only one to directly address anything specific I said

most of these things have been around for months. I've made noise about it before. there's been plenty of time to get things under wraps, regarding both what I said and peoples' behavior. they're not!

there was no shame in or hiding the fact that most of what I said wasn't read.

I got reassurance after those questions, sure, but I'd heard that 'comfort' before. that things would change and to give chances and 'here's what'll happen but not how'. issue is, the promised action never came, and words aren't good enough after violating trust like that

the multiple responses from multiple people acknowledged only this instance rather then the overall principle I was desperately trying to highlight. I was not addressed in specifics even within that. and it ended with a very impersonal and corporate-feeling line of questions

the above pales in comparison to its culmination, though

after a lengthy convo containing logic of frustratingly menial nature, and getting feedback from our own player base, I expressed disdain over the 'subject over matter' mindset that's become so common

I understand that doc cleanups are slow and tedious. I should know, I cleaned up mine. but only one person (maybe two?) ever put effort into cleaning up any other doc, at all. thank you; you know who you are

and I would keep getting told shit that wasn't even on my *own* documentation as if it was fact; I requested multiple times to be updated with missing info, as I was working off of solely that doc, to no avail; and it never let up

our documentation is hellish. even with the inane amounts of docs we have, there are still ones whose entries fluctuate between needlessly lengthy and entirely absent. so much shit comes up in convo that I cannot find even vague mentions of in writing no matter how much I ask

how about we don't get stuck in development hell? how about we consider things that will actually contribute to the experience, that shape the nature and make a thing feel appropriate, *before* we address your personal preference?

there's a rampant issue with mindset. so often, things will be rejected for menial things before any contextual reasoning; 'it's too wordy' over two words, 'players might get confused' about very different items, 'unintended conclusions' when there are already many and it's ok

it feels like such a tiny thing to ask for decency. to ask to feel like I'm being listened to and that others care, to not be constantly sidetracked into people talking about themselves, or simply ignoring me. to not be spoken to like a child, especially.

in a general sense, these longer conversations were usually quite unwelcoming, to the point that it was near constant. nearly every time I would speak in the server, some shit would go down because people seem to lose the ability to have civil discussion when it gets long

many simply can't take even a dink to the ego. how bold it must be for me to say that there might be something wrong with the status quo? what a monumental task to briefly consider an alternative even if only to disagree, and acknowledge the thing I put so much effort into?

shit's been in decline for months. started small, had to shout louder every time. the complacency with things that need attention is immeasurable - but when it comes to proposing a strong rework, many of the team is overtly scrutinizing

as of tonight, I've left the dev team for Terraria's "Ancients Awakened" mod. yes, I’m making this a thread; there’s a lot I need to get off my chest

christ that's some vicious compression

will be starting to repost older art and slowly work my way through most the gallery until I catch up to the newer stuff

first up: variations of icons for the #terraria Aerovelence Mod - they're still in use today!
(March 2021)

#pixelart

happy new year!

I think I’ll be starting to repost some older art to fill out the page when I get back from holiday :3

the most u owe is to take care of your mental, challenge be damned 💙