drug addled pilotpuppy

i should delete this account probably

new kind of uniquely gutwrenching experience just dropped: realizing that a friendship that you valued but didn't know how to cultivate has become parasocial and that you've disappeared into a crowd as the social circle you wanted to be part of just sees you as one of many internet randoms

*submissives

i am not calling out one particular person awawa im mostly just bitching about my brain being incapable of distinguishing criticism of parts of a group of which i am part from criticism of myself

so like i guess i am doing that actually,

kindly requesting that my fellow submissive learn basic social skills and a modicum of self-restraint so that i can stop taking splash damage from seeing dommes complain about you on my timeline

mhm! played a buuuunch of it after the big patch but took a break cause my fp lost interest and i got tired of prenerf apollo real quick

the girlies are all on deadlock... i heard they broke that red twink's legs maybe i should hop back on

i should get back into deranged hornyposting. rlly let that whole "catastrophic breakup crashout" thing throw me off my game

flat hp% damage from gravity magic i'm afraid

i think it's really cool and beautiful when women are scary and also a little pathetic

chat help my handler's other dog keeps following me around and calling me its big sister

chat im serious this is a problem it's way too god damn cute im gonna have to turn in my "not a switch" card at this rate

i also don't think it's a good thing per say, but i think that it's better than maintaining an apparatus for catching people moving between states, given that the people at the levers of said apparatus could change at any time.

that and like on the other side of it, fear of violent criminals entering your country is not a rational fear. it isn't based in a genuine understanding of how crime works and why people do it, and it's one of the main justifications for the cruelty enacted at borders now. best to let it go entirely

if you're doing a criminal record check then it isn't free movement. you'd need to still have a border apparatus.

i was being a little vague though, my point was that i don't have much of a problem with the punishment for violent crime going from prison to "prison or exile, your choice"

i mean presumably if they came back to the country they'd be arrested. did you know that exile used to be considered one of the worst punishments you could inflict on someone

25 minutes of sitting in ranked or 3 sets whichever comes first, then i take a small break and then look at the replays and take notes, and that's 1 rep

i have a quota of reps to meet each week and if i succeed handler uh. well. she um. mm. shant say.

rahhhhh im goated

the power of sexualizing practice cannot be denied

i miss her so much

it's kind of really wonderful being with a girl and realizing that she likes you *because* you aren't a person and not in spite of it

my ability in a fight scales directly with how much my opponent wants to lose so like. yeah.

...you know i think one of my biggest internal contradictions is that i like it when people do terrible things to me, but i'm so so good at being an obedient sweetiepie and i can't brat for shit

i guess that's what the victim aura's for

my sicko game qualifications are old monhun and baroque

fighting games are, in fact, so so much easier with an evil woman in your ear who makes you watch your replays

2026 the year we're so back

new years resolutions

-maintain the relationships i have and build new ones i want

-excise every iota of shame from my body and be honest and straightforward about what i want when im talking to someone im into

-write more things

-win my local tekken monthly at least once

ehehe,,, handler got me a lovense andddd i have to have it in all the time in case she decides i need training

im so happy 🥰

2026 year of alice not having ownership over her mind and body 🥰

inspirational.

i complain to a new friend of mine about how the lack of a d/s dynamic in my life is causing me constant psychic damage and now her friend is in my dms trying to get me to sign a pilot contract??? happy new year everybody

ok but this time we're ACTUALLY so back. like it'll stick this time. mhm.

well, i might still be miserable about being abandoned. but at least im still crazy hot and charming. and at some point during the months of dissociation i got pretty sick at tekken. so we continue to press on.