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tianyue is so special to me. catastrophic mourners dead wife society but in one case her memory lives on in an ungrateful son and in the other case his wife's body is still up and dating aforementioned son

you can get them premade, but it's SO much cheaper to get a pillow shell in the size/shape you want and then get a couple pounds of wool stuffing/roving. make sure it's washed tho! sometimes ppl sell it straight off the sheep and i don't wanna do that. xD ebay's or goodwill are good sources!

i've got hEDS, so a good pillow is essential. i've had my best luck with wool-filled pillows--you can get them firm enough to be as supportive as you want, and when the stuffing starts compressing, you just take it out and pull it apart.

on the one hand, the idea that someone else could marry yuan-ge is unacceptable. on the other, time spent learning to mod is time that could be spent with yuan-ge. on the gripping hand yuan-ge likes spending time away from his binghe sometimes. tragic. 😔

time to learn coding~

...does binghe have butchering mods. no no. maybe? unless?

oh damn now i'm considering what mods he'd have. oh, obvs he'd have a custom yuan-ge marriagable character mod. he miiight have paid for it--and exclusive rights!!--but there's the chance that someone else could use it.

sticker journal, Little Treats, asking for help--but i rlly like Basking. smiling, maybe a little dance. just taking a moment to squeeze blood from that stone. :D

but!! there's a lot of stuff you CAN do to make things easier, and like you said you can learn how do to it, it just takes more thought than ppl who don't have the problem deal with. there's a lot of strats for it!

the problem with "intrinsic" motivation is that it requires dopamine. bc that's the fuel for the engine that is executive function AND the reward for Finishing Tasks. when you don't have enough automatically, you gotta like. figure out Systems for that shit. unfortunately. :/

also re: more hits, fewer comments: there's a Reason hot fic is gonna get more rereads! special treatment required STILL lives in a tab on my pc~ <3

but in a general sense, i would say i'm pretty good at picking out characterization/plot type things to talk abt! suddenly nervous abt this lol.

with pwp fic, a lot of the time what i want to say is "this fic is sooo hot" but i've heard too many writers being uncomfortable with that or knowing someone got off to their work to chance it. (purity culture ruining things ONCE AGAIN.)

and if that's all there is to the fic, i can't rlly comment!

it's SUCH a good mindset--you need that shit to grow!

also, darling, your work is well-loved and finds an audience no matter what. <3 there's always gonna be SOMEONE who enjoys it! even if it's not many, that just means that those with niche tastes are being fed! bc your work is ALWAYS good!!

I'm now picturing Shen Yuan getting his hater streak from Mama Shen because she would be Vitriolic whilst watching crappy TV

Binghe watching Shen Yuan do regular household chores when they're in the modern world and is on one hand like: "Wow the way Shizun folds towels is so cute 🥰!!!" And marvels at the sight of seeing him do something so mundane- but on the other hand, he has the itching desire to

LET'S BE REAL: lbh would LOVE keeping ALL the physical changes shizun gave her, including stretch marks and loose skin

oh right i forgot lol.

but also. ohhh dude organ damage would be setting in QUICKLY. continuous pressure does Bad things to flesh, even if it's not much pressure, ask me how i know. 😬

also contemplating the horror of Hanging Stick could be too much for some. (how is he hanging? hooks? a loop or rope/chain? a harness attached to the chain? how is he positioned? upright/upsidedown, perpendicular to the ground--face up or down?)

see i always thought it was bc he can use the fan as a weapon. so it's like keeping a knife under your pillow but Better (less chance of self-injury AND short&ranged options!)

yeah!! like. both sj and lbh surrounded themselves with women bc that felt safer. but neither build Relationships with them.

god mxtx is SO good at making every character a foil for every other character. hall of mirrors ass books. <3

Qin Wanyue: Unsung Villain of Proud Immortal Demon Way I know, I know, most of you are going, ‘what?’ (and some, perhaps, ‘who?’). Let’s just say that the interplay between several layers of narrative was one of my favorite elements in SVSSS, and I am...

i esp am curious abt how it would intersect with that meta abt how lbg's first time with qwy taught him how to use sex as a tool 👀

ah! found it!
verycharismaticdragon.tumblr.com/post/6755321...

FASCINATING bit of meta! i think that acting cute/being loved are a form of being safe for lbh (adopted by his mom/cared for by sy were the safest points of lbm's life, love of lbg's women meant they weren't using/attacking him/a buffer against the rest of the world. fawn response shit, basically)

We all know SJ and LBH are similar types of people, but I've been thinking recently about their key differences. If LBH was stolen from the washerwoman, kept as a personal servant by the wealthy family that employed her, was told that she'd come back for him when she had the power to fight back...

maybe it's my thing for Nourishing Rot but like

pls remember that no effort is wasted, and even if you don't finish it, it still Honed Your Craft, and it's not TRASH it's COMPOST, transforming into future work!!

also you're your harshest critic <3

one of my favorite bingqiuisms is sqq’s refusal and inability to trust in binghe post-abyss due to luo bingge’s status as King of Lying and Manipulation and the way he’s constantly grappling with this tension. it’s really really good

also important that it's not giving up (if my death will make him happy) it's trust (my death WON'T make him happy)

(hopefully this is coherent/Adds to the convo, i did NOT sleep last night bc migraine xD)

(first of all the meta is sooo juicy and y'all're SO bigbrained)

being hurt by binghe is now preferable to hurting binghe. which is in contrast to the punishment protocol, when he *begged*--"not that face." these aren't opposites, of course! but. there's a *difference.*

Someday I should pick up a pen and draw my bingzu, an older demon with stars in his hair and occasional streaks of white. The huadian bleeding down his face like tears giving him a darker appearance! Despite this he’s surrounded by little bingling sprites, permanently in white lotus mode to

kitten feet!! (≧∇≦)ﾉ

thank you <3

washing the fan is tedious, and keeping water away from the base/fan connection is a bitch, but i can BREATHE :D