Peach

Every now and then (all the time) my brain likes to fucking torture me and remind me that I wasn’t worth being picked over him, OR worth giving him up for..and it’s like taking a dagger and stabbing myself every time. It’s not fair you get to keep him also after everything.

I’m a week away from my period and I can fucking tell because my anxiety and fight or flight is ON

I’m tired of doing this to myself. I’m tired of my body keeping me up In pain or anxiety when I have plans the next morning and always miss them. I just hate feeling like I always fuck up.

I just want to eat snacks while being snacked on 😌

me to me: bitch you stress me out

Stop fucking assuming. Stop letting your mind do this to you, regardless if it happened before or not. I can not let my mind and anxiety hold me hostage any longer.

idk what i'm going to do with myself now that love island ended

I refuse to let myself crash out over this bullshit ever again. I will not be doing that this month or this time around.

If you need to be reassured a hundred times a day, that's ok.

If you need to be held until the trembling stops, let's wait it out together.

Don't feel guilty for needing

The right person will fill that need gladly 🖤

Not trying to assume, not trying to pre-grieve anything. Just small observations that’s all.

Or maybe it was the way you hesitated with the “uhhhhh” when I asked what you were doing, like you wanted to not give me the whole story.

Body is loaded up on my mood stabilizer and my anxiety meds. Tonight I’m gonna sleep good bby

Today might be hard. My heart might be breaking alittle extra today, but I don’t want to be selfish towards anyone’s day with their dad. I think I just wanted to not feel so scared and alone. I hope everyone has the best day, and please give your dad an extra hug from me.

I just want shit to go back to how it was. Before the incident, before 4/2023, just all of it. I just want to do it right. I want to be picked and chosen and fucking loved like how I fucking deserve. I just wanted a life with her..we worked so hard towards it and for it to just blow up..it kills me

I have the right to expect honesty from others. I have the right to be treat with dignity and respect

Yes, you are worthy of love.

I love my bed

Male great spotted woodpecker, a medium sized woodpecker with pied black and white feathers and a red underbelly, a red patch on the back of its head and a strong slate colored beak. Thus woodpecker rests on a mossy tree while looking to the right Credit to Gerry Zambonini

Male great spotted woodpecker, a medium sized woodpecker with pied black and white feathers and a red underbelly, a red patch on the back of its head and a strong slate colored beak. This woodpecker is in flight with its wings outstretched, showing the array of spots Credit to Michael Fink

Male great spotted woodpecker, a medium sized woodpecker with pied black and white feathers and a red underbelly, a red patch on the back of its head and a strong slate colored beak. This woodpecker sits on a rock while looking upward Credit to Yanina Maggiotto

Male great spotted woodpecker, a medium sized woodpecker with pied black and white feathers and a red underbelly, a red patch on the back of its head and a strong slate colored beak. This woodpecker sits on a mossy log Credit to studioimagen73

happy tuesday, let’s get this wood 🪵

bird of the day: the great spotted woodpecker

I hope all my new medications work for me. Im really glad I went today. Im really proud of myself..I can do this. I

Don’t treat me like I’m second place. I’ve always been first prize.

My heart aches alittle after that. both a sad and good way. I’d give up everything to have that again 💔 absolutely everything