starre 💫💗🎩 || StarreWagon 5th Year Anniversary

hello moondancer mlp:fim

hello starreduste bluesky speedwagon guy

i'm so scared of wasting time (and tears) on people who aren't worth it, that i don't even try to talk to anyone anymore...

no new friends either. just polite conversation with an acquaintance or passerby if it strikes -- then *right* back into strict isolation i go. i'm pretty much a hermit now...

wouldn't it be nice if reo speedwagon -- the band, their music, was like... a face. a body. personified. a man of some sort... with the same name... perhaps even,, , **robert**... e. o. speedwagon...

and like... i could,, like... *marry him*, or some shit...

wouldn't that be soooo cool...... 👉👈

i literally went toe-to-toe with my massive, cishet male, abusive birth father over respecting & acknowledging trans people (obviously also including myself)

so don't you fucking dare try to insinuate i'm not doing my part/privileged. i've risked my short-stack, fem fucking ***LIFE*** OVER IT !!!!

the fact that i've probably been out as trans longer than some of these young men... but also likely found out *sooner* than a lot of elders in the "community" as well

it's so fucking sad... where is the respect (two-way street btw -- deny my experience & existence, you get none i'm afraid) </333

my level of dysphoria (nowadays) entirely depends on how i am *treated* -- not how i physically look & feel anymore.

so in conclusion, the **WORLD** and its attitudes toward gender & sexuality need to change. not the people.

(CHANGEIFYOUWANTTOBUTFORREALDUDE,,I'MJUSTTRYINGTOLIVEHAPPILYJUSTLIKEYOU-)

but wtf do i know.

i'm just an autistic bitchboy (with a special interest in civics & history, mind you) who was born out in the middle of nowhere -- where supposedly, queer folk aren't supposed to even **EXIST**, let alone ones as peculiar & unique & educated as *me*.

in ~100+ years from now (if we as a species even make it that far) when we're *ALL* FREE & recognized as human-beings with "certain unalienable rights" (as i *HOPE* that we are)

this queer in-fighting **bullshit** is gonna make us look real goddamn stupid. + ignorant. + oddly hateful, not tolerant.

don't y'all see that *i* won't ever see a time (while i'm alive) where i'm fully accepted as my true, authentic self EITHER...?

yet i still keep fighting for it. existing PUBLICLY (goofy pronouns pin + all) for it. because that's what **real** fucking revolutionaries do, you miserable ***losers***.

so yeah. fuck the cis-wannabe cowards.

i'm done being nice. </3

other trans guys hATE they have to see my pretty, fat ass on the streets.

at least i have the metaphorical *balls* to speak/show up + i'm man enough to be MYSELF in a world that really only sees me as an easy target -- constantly trying to crush me like the pink, sparkly bug underneath its heel...

hell if i stared at him long enough, i could probably go without my glasses...

(/j)

i see speedwagon, and all of a sudden -- it's like i've used eyedrops made out of **literal** angel tears. my eyes go from all blurry & weary & achy to completely healed...

it's like a miracle...... 🥹✨🙏

i will kiss him so hard that he will SUFFOCATE before his heart even has a ***chance*** to attack him--

i'm punk just because i exist.

#radtrans #evilautism

"the only ladybug i want crawling up in my bed is speedwagon in a ladybug costume"

- me (🐞)

my level of dysphoria (nowadays) entirely depends on how i am *treated* -- not how i physically look & feel anymore.

so in conclusion, the **WORLD** and its attitudes toward gender & sexuality need to change. not the people.

(CHANGEIFYOUWANTTOBUTFORREALDUDE,,I'MJUSTTRYINGTOLIVEHAPPILYJUSTLIKEYOU-)

i cannot safely acquire t (again, if i even needed OR wanted it) and let's not start with bottom surgery (something i also deem as unnecessary -- for ***MYSELF***) because... well. honestly. that has literally **nothing** to do with my outward appearance, just living my day-to-day life. like at all.

like seriously what happened to wearing binders. why is top surgery pushed so hard as the new "standard" look for trans men?? like good for you if you have it and it works (for *YOU*) but holy shit man, some of us are out here (even if we ***do*** want it) poor as **fUCK-**

"you ain't foolin' nobody lookin' like that"

well yeah no shit. i'm pretty upfront about what i am on the regular -- which is a hyperfeminine transgender (**NOT** sexual) bear.

respect it or not, i'm still here n' still very much queer. have been for over 10 years now.

#radtrans 🧸💖🎀🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍🌈

it's finally officially our anniversary season now, so i'm gonna try going back to posting as usual (because i ***rEALLY*** don't want my absolutely stupid, shitty irl situation ruining this for me -- if i can help it,,, so yeah-)

:') <3

the amount of times i've had everyday normies confuse my husband (robert e. o. speedwagon) for just about every other white, male, sometimes scarred, character with a top hat, suit & tie in popular media:

1. willy wonka
2. the joker???
3. UNCLE SAM-

[ text post meme edited to have each line assigned to an ogre street gang member -- (casually explains the joke lol) including my jojosona, the odd one out ] TOUGH GUY CHAT (Speedwagon) Bad2TheBone: Eating screws and nails (x2 thumbs up emoji reactions) (Tattoo) SkullCrusha1000: Judt beat up a guy he looked at me wrong (x1 thumbs up emoji + x3 fire emoji reactions) (Kempo) NittyGrittyNate: Haven't showerd in weeks lol (I feel so bad for putting him here guys I'm so sorry it feels so mean</333) (x4 crying laughing emoji reactions) (Starre) DaFoppishDandy: Just purchased the most splendid perfume (x13 thumbs DOWN emoji reactions) (BOOOOOOO)

#starrewagon #ocxcanon #selfship #jjba #phantomblood #meme

gas gas gas

"show 'em why they call you speedwagon, robert"

i say, before we barrel down the f☆cking street

new favorite candy unlocked shshsj<3

"bit-o-honey" yummy

unironically what kissing speedwagon must taste like 🤤🥜🍯

i don't just say this for effect -- i mean it every time:

i'm cringe but free ~*.☆