Reini

Angry muscles

How could I forget that Q1 is peak anxiety and depression

Ahhhh yeeeees. It’s trauma monnnths

I finally get why some families have their own little routines like family dinners and family outings

And almost everything is good except for the noise. The cars, motorcycles, banging, clanking, shouting neighbours

It’s too fucking much

I am overstimulated. My senses are on high alert. I feel like my body is in so much danger. Nothing has changed in my life except for my work schedule and it comes with a lot of pros for my personal life but god the drawbacks are annoying.

Makes sense why working at night works for me…god I need better noise cancelling headphones

It’s the noise… god it’s every sound I hear that I can’t filter out which cause my anxiety to overflow during the day…

In the words of Caitlyn Kiramman

“I don’t need consolation. I NEED a plan”

Ugh. I’m almost at my limit. I can feel it in my bones.

Okay so this is MAYBE, maybe, getting jealous that no one calls me with a term of endearment like that.

God a week is my usual, but jeez I’m cramming it all up in 3 days.

Am I just… really… crazy??????

Oh the pang of jealousy. 😂 hilarious.

God I feel wholly unprepared for this

So I started to okay League of Legends to see what it’s about…

I can see why it’s addicting now 😭

I missed peanut butter

Drive was great too. Put my playlist on without complaints.

Okay.. the solution is maintaining a scowling face and ignoring them. They thought I was angry, and my mom took the passenger seat and was quiet.

How.. do you stop your family from being back seat drivers??? Cause seriously… YOUR NERVOUSNESS TRANSLATES TO ME

Maybe when I have more time for things I’ll ask

I had a good time with friends last night, all of which are paired up with their own partners. Felt a lil out of place at times but then I don’t have capacity for one right now- so imma stay happy for them

My social battery has depleted 😭

Come at me with your best shot 2025.

Anyway, I’ll probably lose more water bottles, hair ties, handkerchiefs, hats - small things, replaceable things - in my lifetime. Best to learn when to leave things behind.

Being sentimental at an airport geez 😅

that’s what you get from being away for a while.

It represented a lot of things really - people and memories - I guess it’s not really about the water bottle, but everything that it stood for.

I… left my water bottle at the check in counter… I was already through security and immigration once I realized it was gone 🥹

Lots of my moots are on vacation in Japan right now, happy that I went to Kyushu rather than the usual places 🥹

Oh yeah i feel that in my bones…im on the verge of getting sick

I have no idea how to travel with suits 😭 I’m just gonna wing it tomorrow aren’t I 😭