Leyana

Woke up sore and so so needy. Getting harder to do anything about it and being denied by my own body is very cruel

Sometimes I think ‘maybe I could have three kids’ and then late pregnancy reminds me that putting my body through this twice is enough 🤪

Same! I’m about to go on maternity leave with no certainty that there’s a job for me when I come back. Time to start looking for something else?!

Just peed myself while vomiting. There really is no dignity in pregnancy

Someone was so rude!! But I told them off and they blocked me lol so now their comment is gone

I had lunch out on my own today while toddler napped at home with her dad and it felt like an almost unspeakable luxury

Why is it that whenever I post on fetlife I come to regret it lol. People are so annoying

Fully liquid poo today 🥲 toddlers with stomach bugs are hard work

I’m sorry I missed all of this. Sending big tight hugs 🫂

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All very tired today. Not enough sleep. She seems off but not sure if tired or ill. Just put her down, hopefully she lets us all sleep a bit more tonight

No idea what caused it! It came out of nowhere and she doesn’t seem ill today. I think she might be teething. We’re all very tired today, not enough sleep for anyone

I love being caned. The ritual of it. The pain is unlike anything else. The marks last so much longer. And I love the deep, long lasting soreness. If I had to pick a favourite implement it would always be a cane 🙈

Toddler woke up at midnight and came into our bed as she often does. And then proceeded to vomit all over our bed.

Anyway we’ve changed the sheets and she’s asleep now but I’ve been wide awake for three hours because that woke me up completely 😵‍💫

I got 24 strokes with a cane. I’m very sore.

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But that’s not an option so I beat myself up and feel stupid and make bad decisions. So instead, he spanks me. And maybe it doesn’t fix it and maybe I don’t magically become less exhausted or distracted. But at least I feel punished, and loved, and seen. Isn’t that enough? Isn’t that the point?

Interesting thought but do we really do this to fix issues or change behaviours? In all seriousness, my behaviour the last few weeks has been from exhaustion, pregnancy brain, sleep deprivation, and just feeling really scatty - what would fix that is giving birth and getting a full night’s sleep.

I mean it’s also the third time this week he’s had to spank me for similar offenses and this one was actually really quite bad so… yeah. I’m not doing well 🥴

I’m so annoyed with myself 🥲 feel like he’s mostly spanking me to stop me from beating myself up

Erm it’s a long story of me being scatty followed by me being dangerous and if i tell you you’ll just tell me off too 🙈🙈

I am in a lot of trouble 🥲 waiting for time/energy to deal with it is the worst part. Punishments should be able to happen immediately

I am so sore

Postponed spanking was a paddling and then a caning. Hoping he doesn’t have to do it again anytime soon cause dread to think what might stack on top of that 🙈🙈

I can’t even argue with it because yeah fair enough I shouldn’t have done that 🙈😂

It’s been postponed to tomorrow because we were both exhausted from an IKEA trip and tiring day with the toddler who refused to nap lol. And so the anticipation builds…

How about instead of more mean wood we get him a new belt that he desperately needs 😇

He loves this paddle. It’s seen a LOT of use already

Omg if he didn’t spank me for 21 months I would lose my damn mind 😂 yes I’m due with our second baby in April!

Apparently I also turned the heating on but left a window open so now I’m not allowed to touch the thermostat without asking for permission again 🙃🙃 what’s wrong with me atm (it’s pregnancy brain) 🫠