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I hope I die in the worst way possible

I was right

Shouldn't get my hopes up

Drawing is impacting my literal mood every single day for the worse, I'm so tired why can't I just be good

I don't want to start another argument for the same stuff

I'm starting to feel bad again but I refuse to start now

I always ruin everything it's always my fault, I should shut up and be good and behave, be strong and caring and not complain

I don't deserve gentleness after being a selfish and uncaring person

I'm shaking and I wish someone was gentle with me

Fighting the urge to bite myself

Another day another failure

Maybe I'll die in my sleep

My head is full of thoughts of me dead I don't like it

I'm ugly, selfish, undeserving of attention and only whiny and always complaining, ruining people's days and I shouldn't exist

I can't stop crying? I want to disappear

I don't want to bother people with my negativity anymore, at least I have this now

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Once again, I feel ugly and lonely, but who cares I guess

I feel really lonely and useless, what a waste of space

At least I managed to make something cute for my partner, I'll have to try again later for myself

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I want to curl up in a corner and stay there... why can't I feel happy or satisfied with what I do for more than five minutes