Ellers the GalaxyGirl 🧀

Happy Halloween... the witching hour is almost upon us, only then can I visit my own realm for but a moment before it fades and I become trapped once again in this mortal world.

I don't look anything like this anymore, I have short, pink hair lol, but I'm still cute.

I wonder how I could possibly get back the audience I had on Twitter years ago. Maybe posting some old selfies will help.

I'm planning to start streaming on Twitch again starting November 1. A lot of my early streams back I think we will be doing a lot of troubleshooting stuff and I don't expect everything to be flawless by any means. I'm still determining a schedule and plan in general but point is I am back!!!!!!!

I'm back! I'm gonna use this way I used Twitter 2022 - 2024, but with a less evil digital footprint. I just desperately need some outlet like this and I didn't want to be on "X".

I miss being microfamous and adored by losers so I'm gonna try to build that back up on here.

My current goal is to finish a script for Quest the Movie by the end of June.

If I’m being completely honest I’m very anxious about it possibly never getting finished. I’m way behind schedule. I’m still having trouble working on it day to day.

Even right now my brain is not working well enough.

I’m working on a short film called Banana-Man: Unpeeled. It’s really more of a proof of concept for a bigger project than anything but I want it to be very well written so I’m putting a lot of focus on that. Its very silly. It’s more or less a Batman parody, but there’s a little more to it than that

I’m maybe going to start using bluesky more because I maybe make too many YouTube posts saying “I’m so back” and then I don’t come back and I need to direct that energy here instead. This can be my little devlog diary <3

I’m back to working on the Quest Season 5 story after taking a monthlong depression break, but in its current form it’s like 80 pages of disorganized notes and outlines and screenplay, a lot of which contradict each other. I’m going to have to spend a bunch of time just reorganizing everything.

I sure do love having an existential crisis at 5am! I’m pretty sure it did cure my depression at least so that’s good, but at what cost???

I’ve really ruined my whole deal haven’t I?? I’m in so deep. What happened to me? Do I even exist anymore in the sense of which I should? I need to stop making things even worse. I certainly self-sabotage. I can’t let myself make things worse.

I’ve been so depressed the past month, and it’s so difficult for me to do anything I want to do while depressed. I’m definitely starting to feel better, but it might take me some time to really start working on projects again.

I’ve been trying to edit videos for a while now but for whatever reason I’ve really been struggling. I get very easily distracted and I waste a lot of time. I want to be uploading multiple videos a week but I simply am not doing that.

I kinda miss being an unhinged, crazy, cringe egirl. i got myself in a lot of trouble like that but it was exhilarating. I know it was just bipolar mania and my ego getting away from me, but it was soooo fun being the galaxy girl.

I posted a new YouTube Short today, just a silly little thing. It’s nice to be uploading things again, even if I’m not quite at the level I want to be at yet. I have made a lot of progress. I’m still kinda a mess.

Bipolar sucks so bad, my brain is just go go go go go, I’m really impulsive and I’m just saying random stuff I don’t even believe.

I wrote a 42 page screenplay in under 48 hours and I’m losing my mind now, I can’t stop working on stuff, there’s no off switch.

“Very very interesting elon, so remind me, how many pieces were there again?”

“wow really? only one?”

“Someone told me and I’m not going to say who it was but somebody told me Bill Gates puts little elves in the computers”

This is the logo for the next episode of Quest for the Crystal Potato, coming 2026 to PotatoFactoryFilms. I will give more information soonish!!!

Welp I didn’t stream again I’m so cooked.

I’m planning to stream 7pm to 9pm Central Time tonight instead of 4pm to 8pm to accommodate editing a video. Having 8 and a half hours of raw footage is really killing me.

I’m mostly just saying this to try to achieve a clean break… I’m about to start being public again in 2025 with all the YouTube uploads I have planned and I just wanna say like, hey, I’m different now, things are different now, I just wanna make silly videos and enjoy life, so let’s do it.

I’ve reached a point in my life where I just want to make my art (mostly short films) and have people enjoy it and I don’t want it clouding over all the stuff I make that I was an obnoxious manic wannabe findomme years earlier. Maybe it’ll always follow me but I hope it doesn’t.

So if anyone sees this that I treated unfairly back when I was in my insane manic egirl days I’m sorry, I do genuinely feel bad I was such a lunatic, and I wish I could fix it.

I didn’t do anything illegal as far as I know and I don’t think any of it was like, SO morally reprehensible that I’m an irredeemable monster or anything like that, but I still feel bad about it and I felt like it was never going to get better until I put out sort of an apology on social media.

I guess by saying all this stuff and not specifying what it is I’m probably setting myself up to make it seem like I did some really horrible unspeakable thing, but none of it was like that, even while crazy manic I still had a lot of boundaries I didn’t cross.

Like obviously I mostly just feel bad that I was not very good to the people around me, but also I feel like that wasn’t really… me, if that makes any sense. Like my mental health just really got away from me and now that I’m better I look back it like “what the hell happened here?”

I feel like I was such an awful person like 2022-23 and it probably affected the people around me just as much as it affected me. I’ve since gotten my mental health under control but that past is always gonna be there and I dunno how to fix it.