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8:24 AM -- Oops, been forgetting to update here! I've been off work the last two days. Almost got an apartment and then it fell through right at the end. I've started a new medicine for sleep and that's making me groggy this morning. Ugh. So tired. So blegh.

6:13 PM -- COOPER ON VACATION WITH MY PARENTS EARLIER IN THE MONTH

7:02 PM -- MOM'S LIL' BUDDY LOOKING RIGHT CUTE

6:48 PM -- HERE'S A VIDEO OF DAD PETTING MY COOPER FROM LAST WEDNESDAY

7:43 PM -- Worked 8 hours today and now I'm waiting on my night time meds. Work was easy enough. I think day shift is easier than working as a closer. Also I rather enjoy working an 8 instead of a 10 all the time. Still working 40 hours this week despite it being my first week back after 2 months.

5:51 PM -- Just got off work from my second shift back. Another 8 hours down. I saw the regular I have a crush on! He looks the same in the 2 months I haven't seen him. I don't think he even knows who I am, especially since I've been missing from the Drive Thru for 2 months... I wonder...

7:46 PM -- Had a productive day and an excellent shift at work yesterday. Now I'm waiting on my night time med dose and getting tired. Ready for bed, although my eyes are burning and itchy for some reason. How do I go to bed like this? Ugh. I'm feeling itchy in other places too, itchy itchy.

10:50 AM -- I took a few days off from Blue Sky to recharge. Now I'm about to go clock on for my first shift back since I got sick! I work 11 AM to 7 PM tonight. Everything feels so weird, being back. I'm not sure how to do the computer again but I'll get a refresher I'm sure! Gonna head up there.

4:15 PM -- ANOTHER CLIP FROM MOM WITH THE DOGGOS BEING RIGHT CUTE 🥰

4:11 PM -- Roommate talking crazy bullshit while I sit here trying to just read and exist. I hate it here. My peace of mind is threatened and there's nothing I can do about it.

12:57 PM -- Well, my roommate is back and life is miserable again. Good thing I'm about to start working again and I won't be around her all that much. I just have to figure out my hours for work and get back to my boss. I'm meeting with my caseworker today so I'll talk to her about my hours too.

7:57 PM -- Had a supremely busy, productive day! Medication went smoothly. No physical side effects today. I was on 5 hours of sleep and didn't fall asleep once today. Had a dr.appointment, visited an art studio, and went bowling, all today. What a day, what a day. Now I'm waiting on my night meds.

8:32 AM -- Hopefully today is better. I'm feeling a bit less nauseous and overall not as tired, so there's hope my days can be better.

4:43 PM -- Had a rough day with my medication destroying me. Couldn't focus, couldn't do anything except be in pain and discomfort. Now it's almost dinner time and my stomach still feels awful. Ugh. I might need to switch my medicine ASAP. This is getting painful and I feel like puking.

8:46 PM -- Good Morning and Salutations my Fellow Warriors!! There's a rumor my roommate is coming back. Lord I hope that report is wrong... Hate to be that way but it really sucked when she was here. Really hope that report is wrong. Jeez. In other news, I regret my life choices. Bad day mentally.

6:26 PM -- Had a rough morning with my medication making me throw up. Then stomach problems all day. But I managed to do some writing and reading some of my romance book! Had fun with that. Now I'm waiting on Dad to call me back for Bible Study.

7:33 AM -- MOM AND THE DOGGOS ON THEIR VACATION WITH DAD THE LAST FEW DAYS

7:24 AM -- Good Morning and Salutations, my Fellow Warriors!! I'm groggy as all heck but I'm sure I'll be okay later. Got some work done on my novel last night!! First time writing prose on my new laptop. Yee-haw! Now I'm waiting on my Morning medications pass. I hate being awake right now, ugh.

Good morning, Fellow Warriors!! Took my morning dose a little later than usual. My caseworker swears I can eat on it now, so I'm gonna try to eat around the normal time my head hurts. I nearly drowned in my own spit last night... Not sure why it happens that way. Probably cuz I'm not drinking water

4:18 PM -- Waiting to be called for dinner. Had a meeting with my caseworker. Just kind of nothing new, everything is the same. I looked for apartments and found... Nothing, no listings so far. And I can go back to work, but they have to write up new hours for me. *Sigh* Not looking forward to it.

7:30 AM -- Good Morning and Salutations, my Fellow Warriors!! Morning med was 7:26 AM so breakfast is at 8:36 AM. My head hurts again from roommate waking me up three times last night, one of them from a deep sleep that had me hyperventilating when she woke me suddenly. I feel groggy and wanna sleep

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7:35 PM -- ***the drug is not in deprevation, although lack of caffeine is probably part of that lack and the reason my head is hurting and full of cotton candy

7:32 PM -- Another busy day of me adjusting to my medication and feeling my physical body kicking my ass. It's terrible. I miss being manic and I miss feeling like a human. This recovery shit hurts my brain which is swimming in a cocktail of drug and sleep deprevation.

8:26 AM -- Took morning meds and I'm waiting for breakfast. My head hurts a bit from my roommate waking me up constantly last night with her various delusions such as a gas leak. Ugh. I hope it's not an every night thing. I need some kind of uninterrupted sleep, dammit.

7:35 PM -- Waiting on my night med dose. My head ache seems to have eased up a tad. I think I'm going to bed early, at least earlier than last night since I'm not watching a movie tonight. Gonna put in my earbud and listen to music before sleep, I think. Hopefully roomie can sleep tonight. 🙏 🙏

4:57 PM -- Lord Jesus, help me deal with my roommate situation. Please give me the peace to deal with her negativity. Please show me the Christian Way to handling her and our living situation. Give me strength and peace so I can heal and get through this too. Thank you.

4:42 PM -- SOOO my new roommate is negative and mean as hell. Hate it so much for her becuz she's miserable and doesn't want to be here, which I get. But damn, now my life is gonna be miserable becuz of her. My head hurts so much from her complaining and negativity. Ugh. Dinner is about to be served

11:31 PM -- Waiting for lunch to be served. Played a bit of basketball with one of the guys, Mike. He's pretty cool and seems the most sane besides me here. Also possibly younger than me, which surprises me because I thought I was the youngest here! Wow! So now I'm waiting on lunch and just vibing.🌟

7:28 AM -- Took my morning meds and breakfast is at 8:26 AM. Gonna kill some time with a Bible Study and a nap, I think.

7:41 PM -- Woooeee, what a day. Another day of me adjusting to my new environment and people surrounding me. More than just another recovery place, it's a whole house of people I have to get used to plus rules and timing of things. And tomorrow I get a roommate, so let's hope she's cool and okay. 🙏✨