Lizquidity

i’ve been running a bit dark lately myself

thanks matilde. i appreciate that!

i keep seeing rabbit pictures

i’m gonna go back to sf this coming week. i have friends there who wanna see me. i wanna stay a few weeks, then travel the east coast after that for a bit. maybe do some more maiding jobs along the way if i can. it’s more fun to help other ppl with their problems than dwell on ur own intractable one

this case of the downers came on rather suddenly. i just saw something and *remembered* and that was it. all the good stuff ive been able to turn the pain into helps blunt the worst of it bcuz ive been able to live very pro socially from it, but even so, i feel spiritually exhausted. ^_^;

the most annoying thing is it’s very much a case of pussy mindset. i shouldn’t be so bothered by things that happened 30 years ago, even if they were tragic. i need another fight to take my mind off things and synchronize body and soul but i didnt tap soon enough last fight & my arm is iffy.

my main account is to big and i feel like i can’t be fully earnest there. no one follows me here so i feel like i can talk about things more. been a bit depressed the last few days despite all the news being good. it’s not a great thing to happen as i try to be always strong 4 everyone who needs me.

you too. i hope you’re doing well. i met one of your coworkers in sf recently, it was fun.

no then. good! hi stellz

always for others you know? it’s important to help as and when you can. it’s healing too. i know it’ll never heal all the way and i do still get quite sad at times for what was taken. but it gave me a strength too. everything is trade offs. i’m doing my best & so is everyone else. bye!

anyway the two video game studios i financed in the social work are doing well and have 3 games under contract with larger publishers to be released over the next year. one of the girls behind it lived in abandoned library when i met her. its so cool to see her take the ball and run with it.

sometimes u have to accept some of the wounds never quite heal all the way. they’ve given me a hell of a life and inspired all my social work the past few years getting homeless trans off the street & into business. i’m proud of that. but. sometimes i still wish it never happened. not 4 me 2 decide

no? good. i can talk about things more earnestly here. this is my secret blog now where i can talk about things.

i’m coming to terms with the understanding that getting locked away when i was little for 12 years really did a number on me. the cool thing is i already fixed myself the best i could.

is anything happening on this site yet?

vibes. it’s not easy at all.

well i am a capitalist but i give all the money i make to queer people and they dont like that bcuz its counter revolutionary or something

good to find you too! i got attacked for being a capitalist

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hi stellz

hey JC good to see ya! 🩵

oh hi j

thank you mephy! 🩵

oh hi guys

i got a notification a bunch of people followed me here but i’m not sure why or how they found it. but hi!

if you wanted to hang out all you have to do is ask. i’m coming to ny in june and can take the train up. i love portland but haven’t been there in 17 years

why

i just got word aurora has been found safe

she was last seen in light wash jeans and a sweatshirt.

aurora was abducted in belltown today. see this post. if you see anything please call the police. and pray for aurora in the meantime. no one knows where she is or if she’s alive.

why are transgenders such cowards so often.