Joel 🌈

RIP, esp since I am no longer friends with the person who made my other friendship bracelets 😭

(to be clear, I sing this in the style of Axis of Awesome's Four-Chord Song, not the Beatles, but no one would get that reference)

a small letter with the writing "Greb, take care of yourself! xo Pilnok" Greb is a nickname of mine.

when I find myself in times of trouble, mother @pilnok.dad comes to me, speaking words of wisdom,

after a very frustrating call with Visa (US+CAN), I was told that Visa would like inquiries relating to using their bargaining power to destroy adult media to be sent, via email, to

askvisa@visa.com

they asked. to be sent. emails. you know what to do.

a selfie of me laying on my bed with my grey tabby cat Muse in the foreground, who has her eyes closed and her tongue sticking out just a little bit

When your movement is happening, opponents of organizing will tar you as violent to discredit you.

After your movement wins, opponents of organizing will claim that you won without violence in order to discredit the movements that come after you.

not a moot but at least one reply guy checking in!

screenshot of a Youtube video preview of a white hooded figure with a long demon tongue with the words "The CIA kept this from you" on it

not a huge fan of the CIA here but in this case thank you CIA please continue keeping this from me

lunchin

a Jumbo Buffoon Pack from the game Balatro

I opened a jumbo buffoon pack and everybody knew you

HELL YEAH HAVE A GOOD AND COZY NIGHT YOU DESERVE IT

hello, reply guy checking in

and if I can't, tell me that too. I can handle it. I just want to be standing on sure, known ground right now.

I guess what I'm saying is.... if we're friends, please be patient with me. I am feeling a lot, very suddenly.

please be honest with me. please be kind with me. please tell me openly if you're feeling negatively towards me, and if I can alleviate it.

and in the middle? I feel the ability to actually do things, but unlearning a lifetime of struggles to turn ability into actions is.... so fucking hard. It's going to be a long process to figure out and learn.

on the other hand... there's no more static between me and my emotions. that comforting distance and fuzziness is gone, and I have to learn to deal with them. it feels overwhelming sometimes, and I don't know who I can safely talk to about it, bc the anxiety and fear is real too.

it's like going from the TV from the 40s that has rabbit ears and is half static at all times to a 4k 70" tv. Everything is happening so much very suddenly.

on one hand, I notice and sense and experience so much more little joys every day. quiet is actually quiet.

I think the biggest thing I can say about being on Vyvanse now is that I'm me, but like... more.

this is both good, because I get to feel more attuned to myself

and bad, because I get to feel more attuned to myself.

very much so.

a selfie of Joel, smiling, showing his new septum piercing.

oh yeah I should post this here too

new face jewelry

suddenly extremely thankful to be on this app

I 100% cannot figure out how to make my profile banner look good on here

same one I used on the other website, and YET

Slap that like button if you hate what america stands for but you love grilling brother

played my valorant ranked placements tonight, got into Silver 3. I'm pretty happy about that, considering last time I placed I was bronze.

Game Boy Mini Camera in my hand behind a beige background and leafy plants

Game Boy Mini Camera hanging out the back of a Game Boy Pocket

A regular blue Game Boy Camera cart on the left, a regular Tetris cart in the center, the Game Boy Mini Camera on the right

I’m here, I guess! Check out my latest project - the Game Boy Mini Camera! It’s a Game Boy Camera shrunken to the size of a regular Game Boy cart for a more pocketable carry. Uses an iPhone XR lens array!

hitman: who am I killing?

dog: ever hear of a guy named pavlov?

hitman: rings a bell

dog: *narrows eyes* that's right