Dakota

I feel that. But know you provide something to the world. Your art is something unique you provide. So thanks for being around.

Really good way to advertise other nsfw games. Thank you

Part 1 of my list of all the BEST goon game deals you can get in the Steam autumn sale!

A bit bigger of an indie, but I've seen trailers and snippets for Witchfire for years, didn't realize it was out in EA until a few days ago.

I don't have a point with these posts, I'm just writing while I still can. [5/5]

I went window shopping for a gun, to see if I could buy one before my car/insurance payments go through and I lose that option. Ended up having a good chat with the guy behind the counter and felt better for a moment. Glad he was there. Didn't buy a gun. [4/5]

I was texting 988 last night and I might as well have been speaking to chat gpt, it didn't feel like a human on the other end. Just a prompt being typed by a human that didn't account for what I was expressing. I feel so alone. Rightfully so, I'm dreadful to be around. But still, it hurts. [3/5]

It just doesn't feel that way even after years of therapy and trying different ways to feel better about myself. I just hate my existence deeply. Or more so the life I don't have. I know everything with my life is my fault, but that doesn't mean I understand how to fix it. [2/5]

I apologize to anyone who followed me for nsfw content when I'm not making much of anything lately. I'm struggling pretty bad. I'm just a weak person in general. I know I should be happier than I am with what I have. It's more than others. [1/5]

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Hasn't even been 24 hours of being homeless and I've already had a cop grab his gun on me and write me a $200 ticket. Yup, definitely going to be able to pay that. Makes sense.

Alright, officially on the road. Let's see where life takes me.

If I make it through this chapter I'll be back.

You've been very kind to reach out to me through my struggles. Thank you. It's good to just know I'm not invisible to the world when it feels like I'm fading away. I appreciate you.

I'm going to be living out of my car for a bit. I'd like to keep creating in some way. Perhaps I can just share my writing on here. I suppose I don't count as a nsfw dev anymore, but hopefully one day I can get back to it.

Best of luck to everyone out there. It's a tough world to create in.

Spent the day door dashing and it ended up averaging like $4 an hour after paying for gas. Probably would be different if I picked up large orders but everything I got was a single meal. I thought it was going to be closer to $12 an hour and even then that wouldn't be enough to live off of. smh

Ended up putting Dust on the back burner for now, but I started a small project with two of my younger siblings (sfw obviously) and have started working in Godot. I like it. It might be a long time before I can revive Dust, and when I do so, it'll probably be in Godot.

Idk if I've been in the industry since I haven't released anything, but I've tried to be an indie for 12 years now. I also feel pretty hopeless these days. Not sure how to dev really.

Down a programmer for the dozenth time. I'm not sure if I even want to continue working in games at this rate. It's been pretty ass.

I ignored Lies of P, but seeing some gameplay from the dlc has me kind of interested if I can get it on sale.

Really good bang for your buck. Will definitely support again in the future when I can.

I've continued to write, but there's not much use in that without art to visualize it or code to gamify the scenes. I am just bouncing back and forth between contentment with my lackluster life or overwhelming stress wishing I was more. At this rate, it'll take my lifetime to make one game, if that

Feels like I haven't gotten anywhere with Dust in a long time. Most of what we have was made 2+ years ago when I had a sugga mama and could afford to put money and time into the project. Now it just feels like I'm either completely broke or when I hit up someone on the team they're not available

I wasn't too fond of it, but I think I might give tabletop another go some time. I like the look of Daggerheart.

Congrats! Hopefully you have a good group. 😁

My first experience the DM made our characters and rolled our dice for us and told us the results 😅

How tf do almost 11% of players have this? (I know the answer is Maelle but still)

I did it. It took idk how many hours but boy that was something. Such a good game.

Man sleeping dogs was so good. Granted I do cherish it more because my dad accidentally bought me that instead of Watch Dogs. Which was a great mistake to make.

While I am struggling in rl, I will say that I'm having a fantastic time in 33. Finished my first playthrough the other day and just started my 2nd today. One of my favorite games of all time.

You do realize how insane that is right? Like imagine some cartel members came across to the US and did what Hamas did. Would it be justifiable for the US to bomb the fuck out of a Mexican city to get back at the Cartel? Never stopping until all Americans were freed or confirmed dead?