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the past few days I’ve been virtually pacing back & forth in my new apartment layout on the website trying to mentally think of what i’m gunna do with it lmao this is my current mood board

i’m gunna be such a freak when I move

I need to do my makeup more often

I can’t wait to move so I can afford to travel again
I miss New York, I wanna go back 😭

rewatching The Twilight Saga, Charlie deserves better 😭

watching Talk to Me for the first time & I stg this is about to pmo

I feel like such a passive friend to people out here, like just an afterthought & I’m so tired

guess it was bound to happen eventually

just bc i’m good being alone, doesn’t mean I always want to be alone :(

please for the love of god stop using AI & ChatGPT

if you’re a creative & you’re not using pinterest, what are you doing??????

rewatching The Last of Us to prepare for season two!!!!!

(30mins into episode 1)

just typed up the most pathetic message ever in my notes app to send to a situationship that hasn’t really talked to me a lot lately & now i’m currently crying bc I feel so unwanted & pathetic but I miss him

I keep thinking I want to grow my color out & go back to blonde but then I get to this phase of the process & I want to dye my hair again 😤

i’m trying so hard to just make it a healthy habit for myself, especially now since I work from home more, but it’s so hard to not let it consume me & become a negative, harmful thing.

I want it to be focused on just being healthy & strong, but its all I think about rn & I over do it, & I don’t do things correctly & then I hurt myself prolonging the breaks I take & then I feel like shit for not pushing through

I want to focus on going to the gym more but finding the motivation & time is becoming all consuming & it’s all I think about & i’m scared i’ll fall back into my unhealthy habits

Im sure a lot of this has to do with my period or whatever but I am seriously struggling & I feel so ugly & gross & I feel like I can’t break out of this mindset, i’m doing what I can, while also trying to care for my mental health but it doesn’t feel like enough

i’ve been really struggling with how I view myself & loving my body, I feel like i’ve changed so much appearance wise, & I know no one else picks me apart like I do, but I’ve also been ghosted very heavily, very randomly recently & it’s really getting in my head & making me think it’s my looks/body

how do I balance working full time + picking up extra shifts at my part time job bc i’m poor + exercise + eating healthy + running errands + doing chores + taking care of my cats + self care + social life + hobbies + getting enough sleep + just living my life? I feel like i can’t breathe.

currently spiraling

that would be meeee🙋🏼‍♀️

I just watched the movie O’dessa, & holy shit. beautiful movie, so campy, so gay, very well done. very post apocalyptic rock opera version of Romeo & Juliet. I loved every second.

holy shit am I sad

here are some fav pics of my cats from recently xD

I am both

apartment hunting is so stressful but I fell in love with this cute little one bedroom & i’m literally daydreaming about it scrolling pinterest

update: I spent way too much money