Null :: Off Duty

I wish my mental health could be cute and quirky like tumblr makes it feel vs a living hell where I break down panic sobbing over the stupidest situations.

I hate my mental health

i've been applying myself more to the irl world and man i love being around people, im just so socially awkward due to the fact ive been living the introvert life for so long

Weird brain bubble, but learning about myself alot this last year and man it's been an experience. I identified as an Introvert for most my life, turns out I'm an extrovert who just worries too much about saying the wrong thing cause I'm awful at gauging conversations.

The boyo

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All i wanna do is make people proud, i wanna be the best version of myself so that I can be someone people want to be friends with, but im also so exhausted

Stuff I cannot seem to handle these days: unsolicited venting in a open space

I've been working so hard on my mindset, that walking into a public space to big vents just hits me so hard. I'm so done with it, if you ask i'll listen but i want the ability to consent

Going to my local Furmeet tomorrow, Ahhhhh its been way too fucking long!

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It's been a long time since I posted general designs for sale! feeling a bit nervous about it, but I hope y'all like them! :3

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#adopt #adoptable #furry #furryadoptable

Im dying yall, ive been applying for irl work. Got 2 interviews next week wish me luck

Finally had most of my closest friends in a VC togehter and GOD....IM SO HAPPY, totally not happy crying rn

Worked on this the other week

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Been Slowly working on refs in prep for Artfight~

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Is my birthday is!!!

Featuring my best friend Crowes (Right)

maybe I'll do a little DID, introductory post sometime soon, i think, it might be a good way to feel comfortable yapping about it again, i used to be so open about it and at some point i just got shy

thats where some of my mental improvement is, just 2 'people' trying to be one functional entity vs like the 100 that it was before. I know its not the major sense of my improvement but just, food for thought. IDK I'm having a personal little ramble yap,

a mindset where normally my brain doesnt stop and I hear the mental input from SO many voices in my head to just silence and the occasional smug remark from the only person who internally seems to exist.

I'm not like upset or anything with my brain working how it does but it makes me wonder if

when I try, so maybe using this as an outlet is a good first step forwards. This time last year i was in the 100's alters wise. Recently its just me (dog/Null) and Wynn, with a rare appearance from a 3rd or forth, but in regards to consistency. Me and Wynn, its scary, going from

Small Mental Health/DID yap

It's always been so many of 'us' the person who makes me, me? But since something happened in September/October its just been two, its so weird to then talk about or bring attention to. I want to be more comfortable and open with my mental health but i feel cringe

quote with your favorite pokemon

(la creatures)

of course my toxic gays are a day late for Valentines day however im so autism over these two

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Like holy cow people really dont know how their own disabilities can actually be effecting them, makes me wonder how it is for the content creator behind closed doors if they think theyre thriving with adhd rn

Even when its a productive thing? God only knows every actual need leaves my brain, showering? No because i need to stay in the zone. Eating? No cause i need to stay in the zone

Adhd is so fucked up in the way it can be
“Gets nothing done feeling guilty” and “gets everything done at cost of needs”

Just wait until they find out that adhd works in the opposite way too and can make you feel like you are being productive until it pushes you into severe burnout and depression

I make jokes that my adhd/autism work hand in hand cause sometimes they do, but when they hyper focus on a task together

we've had 40~ people join so far so more the merrier >:3

which is know isnt the case but GAUGH, gotta get over my social anxiety

I have so many games i want to specifically stream, i have Fall out 3/New Vegas/4 that i want to stream, I want to play one of the final fantasies, and ori and the blind forest, i just get so caught up in the moment that suddenly ive got no time or get anxious that people wont watch

January was something else so 2025 starts with Feb for me

Goals for this year:
- Feel more confident about drawing backgrounds
- Post more publically, cant keep hiding on discord!
- Be more consistent at streaming (Monday/Thursday with a random day inbetween)

me: whats popping on bluesky today
bluesky: have this on your discovery page
me: I WORK HERE!

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Luxray Design for an ARPG group~

Love this design alot, his name is Locke and think he's going to be an isolated little bastard man!

Made it through another month, So proud of me!

I've been thriving the last few months, rose tinted glasses weren't a good look on me at all