jou-ron-al

man, the twt dm update where messages are now sorted made me read old gcs from when things were still simple. made me realize what my goal has been from the start and its time to align back to it

When will it be my turn?
The world keeps handing out
small wonders —
friendships that fit,
lucky moments that fall
so easily into
open hands.

And I stand here,
quietly hoping,
quietly hurting —
wondering why love
slips past me,
and luck
never lingers.

oh, they call that “vibe coding” funny how i don’t really code from scratch anymore, but i love it. my job supports it too. they even got us a license so we can feed data in. makes work lighter. hopefully more companies open up to this kind of change with the right regulation of course.

omg di ako nakapasok. natakot ako wahaha sayang

kaloka diba buti umahon na kami haha

nasa gilid ng pool tapos ayun may pagthrust kitang kita hahaha 😭

uu bhe. buti umahon na tayo nun haha kalerks

pero nkklk talaga yung nagkantutan sa pool jusq ayaw sa dark room. gusto live show hahaha

saya sa osoass. ang intense at tagal ng momol namin ni croomf. pinahawak pa titi hahahaha. also highlight talaga makatikim ng japanese. worth it 🤤

minsan di ko rin alam paano ako nakapasok sa company ko. lahat ng mga referrals ko rejected. alam kong may fave company sila na matic pasado. pero shet magagaling yung mga nirerefer ko tapos wdym rejected agad initial palang. and ang malala sept 8 pa yung isang interview tapos nireject ngayon huh?

staying up late because i don’t want tomorrow to come. i don’t want to lose our last childhood dog stuart, the one i named. but i know it has to happen. he is suffering and we don’t want him in pain. thank you for keeping us safe. i hope you play with your bro kasmot in dog heaven. run free my love

i used to hate my body so much. i’d wear sando to hide my chest, always scared of people noticing. now i love and appreciate it more. i also realized i wasn’t alone many gays struggle like this too. i hope none of us have to escape from ourselves again

watching sports anime where the senpai graduates made me realize something at a young age. it hit me how quickly things can end and how you won’t always get the chance to do certain things again. it made me value time more, even in the little things

haha okie lang. i was referring dun sa di ko kilala tapos nag spam like walang tigil 😭

aweee 🥹🥹🥹 labyu raf

after a fight i realized i’ve been isolating more these days. maybe it’s cos i’m scared of making new connections. things always get complicated. and i’m just tired of the cycle

weddings make my heart ache quietly. i imagine me and jami there, dancing while everyone watches, both of us happy. our parents proud, friends cheering, the room full of love meant for us. no rules, no judgment. i keep hoping a day like that becomes real, not just for me but for others like us

maybe i just miss playing with people. back when things were still okay. i never wanted anything more than to have fun. how did it all end up like this

was about to sleep then ended up rewatching all my old tiktoks. man, those were some good times. really glad i made them. haven’t been able to post much lately. gotta start making stuff again.

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im good at remembering people, even just by their usernames, even if we’ve never interacted. makes me wonder if anyone does the same with me

some choices feel wrong in the moment
but make sense in hindsight. i just wasn’t meant to be part of that journey

hahaha onga no

remind me why we’re guilt-tripping others to help someone who doesn’t even ask for it. be the hero yourself

interesting how people can get trauma bonded and suddenly none of the past matters

i studied hard and became top of the class so he could copy my work. we became friends, end of story. i didn’t even know he was my crush, but back then i always thought about him and wanted to cuddle with him.

random lore: in high school i thought i was straight but really wanted to get close to this cute chubby guy from another section. in 4th year CAT, students were grouped by last name and we ended up seatmates.

saw our manager on a call even on july 4, their holiday. they have fewer holidays to begin with. also saw her often updating tasks after shift or on weekends. the client is constantly looking for her. is that still living..

omg one of my fave character

seeing rich people buy very expensive stuff makes me wonder: if I were rich, what would I do? life would be easier. no jobs to stress over. freedom to explore the world. focus on what matters while still here on earth. i’m content with my life, but it’s just wild how money lifts so many limits