Sunshine ☀️

The way you couldn’t tell me I was the next Harry Potter if this happened to me.

Absolutely insane. You’re blocked but think you gonna get some 🐱

He also messaged me randomly today through another text now number talmbout some “can I get some?”

I deserve as much of me as I give to others

I always find myself being lusted over instead of being loved. I’m going to therapy next year to unpack this tho cause I’m somebody’s wife & im not gonna be a sister wife at all but especially not to a woman who can’t dress. But I digress.

I do shit for the plot & bc I’m romantically inexperienced not because I’m dumb lmaooo

That was the end for me bc the way me & my savior set up we don’t play no devil shit. He also just started being fucking weird and condescending. He talked to me like I was dumb & questioned my knowledge on just about everything. Mind you I have a whole ass masters degree.

The free trial relationship was wild too lmaoo. Man tells me once that I’m so good to him that he thinks he literally manifested me. Then later tells me he thinks the devil sent me to distract him from his business.

Cause he wasn’t gonna stop contacting me & I was gone answer. He literally told me I’ll always find you bc I love you. Anyway so he hardbody tryna get back in my good graces but in family pics on fb looking like a bunch of hood pilgrims on Thanksgiving. Wondering why he’s still blocked.

He thinks I don’t know he got that lady believing they’re one big happy family. Meanwhile he’s constantly telling Ms he loves me & wants to be with me. Despite this story I’m not stupid lmao I have an unhealthy attachment which is why I blocked him. Had to hop off crazy train.

I’ve told that man more than once to go be a family with that lady & their kid. You should’ve left me alone in the first place but we got attached & then when I detach you come back around but still playing.

Which was his messy ass mama posting pics with his BM on the night we were supposed to watch the evening fb games together. I said you say you tired of complicated but still doing the same shit that makes it complicated. You can’t have your cake & eat it too. He’s greedy.

This isbimportant bc with all his bullshit I never blocked him. So I’m cool on him for weeks. Til this weekend he hits me on a text now number. Asking if I’m mad & why I blocked him. I said not mad disappointed & I saw some shit I didn’t like.

I’m leaving out shit bc this is long. Anyway ffwd to last month he finally wearing me down & im thinking about giving it another try. We had made plans for twice in one week. The second one falls through. I just get an uncanny feeling that he playing in my face so I block him no explanation.

I had ended up in the hospital. He randomly calls me bc he got a feeling I wasn’t good. All but cusses me out cause why didn’t I tell him. Professes his love but says he can’t love me like I want to be loved but he loves me the way I need to be loved.

I been praying the prayer now you know the one bc why can’t I shake this man I know is no good. Soul tie? Trauma bond? Attachment issues? It’s not daddy issues cause I have a great relationship with Twin I think that nigga hung the moon.

Anyway March comes around & I finally start talking to him fr bc I decided I needed closure. I also truly missed him bc we spent so much time together on that short span we became good friends. So atp we still talk from time to time & when I feel like it we chill.

His BM came to me as a woman asking how I knew him etc I tell her everything. He gets mad blocks me. Cool I go on with my life. He unblocks me but then uses text now to contact me. I’m standing my ground. Hell I even had a bf in March. Only for March tho that’s a whole other story

So last fall I was involved with this man I refer to him as LB love bomb or now crazy man. It was like a whirlwind type shit. Literally lasted only two months but we were in each others skin & saying I love you & all. I was ready to lock in when I had a Barbara this is Shirley moment.

Since I’m up & a lot of my mutuals haven’t found me here yet imma vent about this lil situation here. Lmao it’s quite absurd.

Stores have their Christmas displays out so damn early by the time December come around they aren’t restocking & everything gone.

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Dark mode everything.

My first two days i survive off midol max strength & a heating pad 🥴

Jumping right to the DMs without building any TL rapport is risky business..

You got one maybe one and a half times to make a woman feel like she bothering you and she'll never ask you for nothing again

Watching 30 for 30 This Magic Moment

Tbh, having to ask isn’t really my thing. I’ve got a serious case of ‘I’ll do it myself’ syndrome.