McDanian

So...can I make this into a sci-fi/fantasy/dystopian story? Yes....

Should I?

Well you see there as this girl.....

Ever wonder why it takes a million steps to do one thing? I'm going to blame human error. It just has to be MY fault that YOU can't read the instructions. 🙄🤬

Sometimes I just have random long hypothetical conversations with the SearchAI. And today I got to learn about Identity Diffusion.

So no AI isn't the dumpster fire it can be.... I'd say about 5 more years ... Yeah, 5 should do it.

BTW if anyone was curious about BF6 - Unless you fancy having to follow obscure guides to enable your computer to play the damn thing I wouldn't bother. Plus Windows 11 apparently doesn't like my set up at all. 😡

One holiday down. A month of stress and pain ahead.

Can I skip ahead to June and see how this ends? I'm exhausted.

Random zealot: My god can save you from a terrible place!

Me: Then why am I still here?

Me (5 minutes later): Damn it, I should've asked why they were still here. 😮‍💨

That is going to be hard. Murphy loved Thanksgiving... Well at least the party where he got to lick the beaters that had homemade whip cream on them. He wasn't a huge turkey fan but it was okay for a meal or two.

#holidays #grief #mourning #loss

I think the part that is going to haunt me is that I didn't get to hold him one last time. Someone else needed to more, but it still hurts.

#mourning #loss #death

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TRAILER CHASERS

Super excited to check out @nicedreamgames.com / @skybound.bsky.social #GoodnightUniverse
I’m a psychic baby who’s made BOOM BOOM…FEAR ME

🔳 #Twitch / #YouTube x TheOnlyRyann

Only Death could make me want to join a religion. And they are the only ones who have never asked me to.

#Death #mourning #loss #Hope #whatdoyoubelieve

Good news! That surgery you need to remain a monetarily viable member of this society is back on.

Bad news! We need more recent labs and renewed clearance from the PCP that you saw once 2 months ago. And your current PCP is unreachable until halfway into December. 🤬

What I think my chances are: 0

Is it forgiveness if they aren't here to hear the apology?

Or is it just another way to make myself feel better?

#mourning #loss #grief #questions #hope

Dear universe and random deities,

I would like to be done with the 31 flavors of sadness now.

Thanks,
Mcdanian

PS- if you wouldn't mind please delay the holidays this year.

#mourning #grief #loss #hope #regret

Frustrated by the Medical System, Patients Turn to A.I.

Hmm. I wonder why we'd do such a thing. 3 weeks for a follow up appointment for a head injury that we still don't have an image of.

#healthcare #medicalindustry #medicine #angry

Replying to @Karma Nov 18th ‘Meet You By The River’ will be available everywhere 🕊️ 🎧 #meetyoubytheriver (presave link in bio ) TikTok video by Cam

Okay this should be the last of the songs I want for Murphy. There will likely be more through the years but these....

#grief #mourning #loss #hope #thereismore

This one is for the ones we lost too soon 💔 TikTok video by Parmalee

#grief #mourning #loss #rainbowbridge #hope #thereismore

My grandma passed away a few months ago, and I wrote this song for her. It hurts in so many ways losing someone who’s been with you your whole life. It’s a shocking reality to live with the fact you w... TikTok video by Isaac Mather

#grief #loss #mourning #hope #remembrance

Is it better or worse to dream of the dead?

All I know, ripping that scab off hurts like hell again. But I would rather do that then never see them again. Even if it is only in my dreams.

#death #loss #mourning #grief

A tweet from Gavin Newsom (@GavinNewsom) says: “You literally fought in court to strip families of food assistance.” He’s replying to Acyn (@Acyn), who shared a video of Trump speaking at the White House with the caption: “Trump: The bible tells us that one of the measures of any society is how it cares for vulnerable children and orphans—so important and so big in the bible.” Below the tweet is a Fox News screenshot showing Trump at a podium, speaking during a live address. The chyron reads: “NOW: TRUMP SPEAKS AT EXEC ORDER SIGNING.”

Indeed, he did.

I don't know if I want to see him in my dreams or not. I prefer to think he is guarding my dreams like he used to.

Which starts me thinking about what he is protecting me from.

#mourning #grief #guilt #loss #death #notokay

And here comes the guilt. Word of advice, remember to tell yourself you can't change the past. You don't have that power. No one in any reality or realm has that power.

#grief #mourning #rainbowbridge #death #loss #advice

I'm pretty sure at the end of my life, I'll die waiting for a doctor's appointment that is 3 weeks away.

#medicalindustry #death #fun #morbid #ridiculous

Great. Here comes the "what if" conversations. Usually I enjoy these or at least use them to ask myself really hard to think about questions.

"What if husband died today? What if I died? What if a natural disaster occurred right now?"

Guilt is a curse and all the what ifs are just another wound.

One of the things we don't talk about is how guilty we feel for moving beyond the day they died. Each day is taking me further away from the last time I hugged, kissed, and held him.

What really sucks.... I'm the youngest in my family right now.

#mourning #death #notfair

What is it called when you're not depressed but feel like no matter what you do it isn't enough to change anything in your life?

Yeah...I think I'm wherever there is.

#life #whatever #midlife

I'm going to ask a question. Think about it for a bit. All the nuances and all the possible implications.

What is the value of a life?

#question #philosophy #curiosity #conversations

Nearly made it 46 years without stitches. 😮‍💨 I may need a new November Bingo card at this point. And the 2025 card isn't looking so good either

#bingo #ow #unexpected

Fun fact 666: Being the youngest in the household & knowing that you will be last surviving member coupled with the extreme dislike of social activities is not a fun way to contemplate end of life choices.

Fun fact 669: Death is now one of my best friends.

#mourning #loss #death #morbid