Deadhead (🏳️‍⚧️ Horror Vtuber)

sorry for the ramble it was meant to try and say that I empathize with the frustration of being told "you should go to the hospital" to fix the worst of my flare-ups when that has rarely ever done anything productive.

Mind you the visit was after an agonizing few days where I couldn't eat anything and had barely slept. I looked like Nosferatu 2024 sitting in the waiting room. And they still just instantly said it was because I was overweight and chalked it up to my "unhealthy lifestyle" from being disabled.

Our medical system is a fucking nightmare that prioritizes maximum profit for minimal effort. The last time I went to the hospital due to an intense gastrointestinal flareup they said "maybe lose some weight", prescribed me nothing, and I had to fight them to get my disability to pay for the visit.

I've skipped out on "probably should have gone to the hospital" trips because I'm over 200 pounds with various disabilities so I know that I'd probably get told "have you tried not being fat about it? Maybe it's a nervous response from all of your anxiety and depression. 2000 dollars please 🥺"

“You can't do this ... We’re human beings!”

“No. You are roaches. Only one way to deal with those"

— Absolute Batman 🦇

If you see someone taking food or even baby formula, no you didn't.

it’s ween

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hinako doodle

#silenthillf #hinako #shf #fanart #sketch #art

Bluesky has NO ALGORITHM.
Likes are PRIVATE by default.
If you enjoy someone's content, you've GOT to get used to circulating it.
The point of social media is to be SOCIAL.
It's literally just a 2nd button press; please help artists out by hitting reblog, too! Likes are nice, reblogs get exposure!

a cartoon drawing of a ghost with wings flying in the air . Alt: the scariest ghost you've ever seen

oh yeah? then explain this.

an open hole / trapdoor behind a fence in an urban / factory style environment. Something like a flayed skull on a thin long neck is pulling itself out by two long, finger-like appendages

in the crawl space

base photo by @bighisses.bsky.social , thank you!

I propose November 1st as resurgence day. Halloween ends, and we all pick up the phones again. MasterCard and Visa, bare minimum, once per day. Every day. All of us. They are only hiring the usual number of holiday workers, this would frighten credit card companies. “It’s not going away”

I feel like I should apologize for not streaming or creating as much as I would've liked this year. Honestly the string of one World Event after another, coupled with body issues flaring up inconveniently, has made any attempt at any sort of schedule nearly impossible, and I feel burnt out.

Appreciate you saying that, Bon. 💜 You're one of my biggest inspirations to keep at it despite the delays.

My depression feels like...bluh. Ever since november of last year, I've regressed to a point where I was around the time I started going to therapy regularly. My drive and energy have tanked and my moods swing rapidly. I have really up "up" days and really down "down" days.

It sucks. I'm stuck here with only my cat for company due to my disability, but the same disabilities that give me time to do things I want are the reason I can't.
I feel like a bad creative.

I love this time of year, I want to stream scary games for you guys, I have so many ideas on how to tweak my various Deadhead designs and even creative ways to craft lore for them, but any time anything gets started I feel paralyzed, or something IRL happens to shatter my mood, or my health dips.

I feel like I should apologize for not streaming or creating as much as I would've liked this year. Honestly the string of one World Event after another, coupled with body issues flaring up inconveniently, has made any attempt at any sort of schedule nearly impossible, and I feel burnt out.

As someone who depends on SNAP, I wanter to give some tips to those of you who are also not getting your cards refilled next month. A thread 🧵

(And if you don't depend on SNAP, many of these tips can help you reduce your food costs since its expensive out there rn)

bsky.app/profile/wari...

Saw this on my feed and remembered you posting about your mouse trouble.

With SNAP/EBT cuts looming I highly recommend downloading this app! Basically restaurants and other food businesses will have available bags of random food they don’t wanna waste for ppl to buy for hella cheap! This has saved me sooooo many times when I only have $5 and need some food.