紅色の世界

Hades in Hades' style

#FFXIVART | #EmetSelch

some of my old surtrene drawings 😇😈
#arknights

Not sure why, but this happens with 90% of my self inserts
I'm insane, over the heels and then suddenly DAMN YOU LIVED LIKE THIS BITCH EW
Uh, it reminds me of something...

Checked yume tag and I envy how "normal" are people there
And there's me feeling ashamed (kinda? Cringey for sure) after my Saw phase

Nah, I was Twitter dweller for too long to stop using Twitter terms here

It's insane, it feels like I'm naked without a lock on my acc
Also couldn't qrt stupid tweets and vent meeeh

two cats are looking at each other and one is black ALT: two cats are looking at each other and one is black

Me @ me when I wake up and remember everything that I wrote here

ANYWAY, not sure if I want to be "normal"
Perhaps it's my depression speaking
At some point I just stopped to care about anything, like future and myself
I just live as I could and try to keep up

Ugh, I just realized that I don't know how to start my sentences without "anyway", "but" and "damn" 😭

Sucks to be meeeeee when people don't understand how my brain works

Damn, even if my feelings are not as strong as before I still love him so much it's kinda insane

My Radiance...

Should I try to New Game+ Shadowbringers after finishing GW2 main story? Maybe I should

Mfw it's 7 a.m. and I'm still awake (but I need to work my stupid freelance zero money job tomorrow (today))
Ah shit here we go again

Tbh it's going to be INSANE if I manage to pull this off

My english is also not that good, but idc atp

It's kinda happening
Maybe if I read this 40 chapter long fic

This silly woman can dream about falling in love with you again

I'll change it later but missing being under a lock tbh

Ah, I shouldn't have called this acc as my main bc this is embarrassing

But today..damn...

Also all if my selfships died and it was like my coping mechanism and my a big part of me and I tried a lot of things to came back to my past self

My depression hit the point where I feel like I don't have a depression anymore

Felt so dead emotionally past few months
I mean it's like usual stuff, I played GW2, laughed, cried, kinda hyperfixated??? but at the same time it felt almost like I'm nothing

DAMN
I wanted to write like one specific thing and now I'm overwhelmed with so many thoughts

Anyway, sorry in advance

Okay, so I came here to write some things I don't want to write on my priv twt and realised that people from my main twt found me here
Hiiii

Okay, I guess I can overshare here now