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I don’t exist

Can the world stop dragging me down?

Where there are ups, there are downs.

I honestly hate how I am always so tired. Unable to get myself to even really do anything meaningful.

Last night gave a revelation to me of sorts... All my friends are so talented and Im not... I only survive because my friends are so amazing. It feels like the only thing I provide is being a "Nice person" and Im not even that nice. Like, what do I even provide to my friends?

Do you ever get a feeling of something just being... Wrong? Though you cant tell exactly what it is?

Please be patient with streamers. Right now a lot of us are dealing with the harsh reality that has befallen us and being a "ray of sunshine" can be harder than you think. Some people feel the NEED to be happy at all times during stream. I am one such person. Thankfully I have only met cool people.

I will say, as an America (Which the following I have mentioned on my main before) I am absolutely terrified. Our future looks dark... What the fuck do we do?

Why does Citizen Soldier do so many songs that fucking hit so hard? When I need to cry I just listen to their songs and let it all come out. Fuck.

Do be aware, I will be talking about mental health a LOT on this account and also venting so look at this account at your own risk. #MentalHealth #Trauma

Hello everyone, its Natsuki. You may be wondering what this account is specifically for? This is my personal account where I will say things I wouldn't on my actual account as I do not want to make either either: Too full of things that generally arent brand friendly or some other shit.

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