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I understand that I, by definition, signed up for this when getting married. And most nights I don't mind saying "yes".

But it would be nice to be able to say "no" on nights like tonight, when I'm not emotionally up for it and I know that saying "yes" is just gonna make that worse.

CW: vaguely TMI/NSFW relationship stuff

I was feeling kind of depressed on my way home tonight, and when I got home Finance requested sex (with the strong implication of "has to be tonight since you were too tired last night") and I do not have good enough mental health to deal with this tonight.

I've been off social media for a few days and have no idea what The Discourse is about.

I kind of want to though, because I enjoy popcorn.giffing when things are on fire.

A tired looking star with an above caption saying "the hanging in there star" and the bottom caption saying "post this star to let your buddies know you're hanging in there but you could lose it at any moment"

Did you know that you can create an email that the recipient can't forward, print, screenshot, or copy-paste?

I've also been told that I'm not allowed to talk to anyone about the email's contents, because it contains "private information" (ie grievances against me, which aren't even true).

I'm not fired, but also, things keep escalating in ways that are both shady and baffling.

I tried going to HR, but it turns out that we don't really have in-person HR at the moment. Something about their cubicles being remodeled.

Ok, whoever guessed "passively suicidal" wins.

Am I going to try to actively off myself? Not right now.

If a tornado heads directly towards my house, will I seek shelter?

...... you know, if I'm dead, my problem magically goes away. Sounds kind of nice.

I have one from the previous release (in 2017-ish) and it was worth every penny. Zero regrets!

Absolute worst case scenario is that I get fired (either in retaliation or if my manager decides to spin the facts to make me look bad).

Who wants to place bets on whether I'll want to unalive myself at this time tomorrow? I'll set up a prediction market.

Currently freaking out because my manager, rather than talking to me, decided to go with the nuclear option. I suspect there will be a meeting with HR in my near future.

I'm too stressed/sick to sleep and have a sneaking suspicion that tomorrow is going to be worse.

This has been going on for months/years and I'm at the end of my rope because he absolutely REFUSES to communicate in a direct way.

I've told Finance that he needs to be explicit when asking me for things, because I'm stupid and autistic and do not get hints.

So what has he been doing? Hinting that he wants things, and then getting upset when I don't give him those things.

It was an entire decade ago. Because I was broke and living with my parents at the time

I will be at World's this year! Are any mutuals coming? I booked one of the nearby hotels and I'm currently looking for roommates.

(Finance will be coming to LA but not staying at the hotel with me. He's staying with friends instead.)

"A few years back" she says. You are doing the old person thing.

Also, it leaves a bad taste in my mouth that I'm not allowed to have certain haircuts, but he can do whatever he wants. He's straight up told me that my opinion will not be taken into account on his haircut and facial hair. If I don't like it, tough. Which seems like a double standard.

My hair is getting long enough that it's getting unwieldy. I would like to cut it short, but I keep having second thoughts because of what Finance said.

He insists that he doesn't want me to cut it "short enough that it looks like a man's" (whatever that means).

7 degrees outside: I am too cold
turn my heater on: I am too hot
turns my heater down: I am too cold
Turns my heater up just a hair: I am too hot

Weeping.

A parking lot showing a cybertruck in one spot, next to a car that has built a cybertruck-esque shell around it out of green plastic. It's really hard to describe exactly how silly this vehicle looks next to the green car.

In my city there is one cybertruck and one DIY parody of a cybertruck and the parody truck has become a local celebrity. Meanwhile, I always wish I had some rotten eggs to throw at the tesla whenever I see it.

I'm fine with having sex even when I'm not in the mood, and my husband knows this. The problem here is that it goes beyond me not being in the mood.

"Actually, I'm sorry, but can we do this tomorrow?" will require an explanation that I don't know how to phrase without being too blunt/honest.

How though?

I have ways to ask for a raincheck if I'm not feeling well physically, but this whole "my brain has randomly decided that this feels like sexual assault (even though it isn't)" thing is new.

I'm usually a blunt person, but communicating that bluntly isn't gonna end well.

Posting this here instead of at the other site because
1. I don't want to attract the pornbots.
2. Finance checks that account sometimes, and I don't want him to feel bad.

I guess this falls under what the fic writers call "dubious consent", but I've never been taught how to handle those types of situations in real life.

I've been dealing with this recently, not all the time, but sometimes. (I know the root cause but it's not something I can fix right now.)

Ignoring my feelings and having sex anyway means I end up sobbing afterwards, as if I was sexually assaulted or something. Even though I wasn't (WTF brain?!?)

I'm not talking about just feeling tired or having a headache and needing to postpone a day. I'm talking about situations where you feel uncomfortable or unsafe, and would withdraw consent if that was an option.

CW : sexual consent

A thing that no one ever discusses about marriage, but that I wish they did, is "how do you have sex (without also having a breakdown) on days when you don't want to have it?"

Same 😭

Digital black and white sketch of Gabumon (Digimon).

Gabu 💙 #digimon #art