Ari

god i hope she says yes to that

i think im gonna make this girl my wife one day

my girlfriend is hot so I got stuck awake thinking about her

6am, time to sleep

always funny to me that my father wanted a son and instead he got a faggot

well the funny thing about that is like, the thing that happens is december is her family deciding if it's safe to stay in the US or not. So like, if they decide they need to get out I need to visit earlier cause they'd be gone otherwise

gonna fly to my girlfriend in either Jan or Feb, kinda sucks cause I don't know which, really depends on something that happens in december. In any event I'm looking forward to it, really can't wait, I just want to spend time with her.

grounding yourself when you're starting to panic about something is not easy but it's a skill I recommend practicing. I've slowly gotten better at it with time, and it's helped a lot.

like a lot honestly

fuckinnn I miss my girlfriend

like dawg I'm not trying to start things, literally he asked what was for dinner and I told him and he got mad at me because he already knew. Dawg why are you asking if you already know

my brother doing the try not to be a combative asshole challenge: IMPOSSIBLE

I love my life lol

and how hot my girlfriend is

it's crazy how hot I am

if you told me I was going to meet my future wife in ffxiv at 5am I would not have believed you

just makes me feel uncomfortable. But I mean I get it. She kinda, was interacting with everyone around me constantly for months. So I guess for most people it's just "oh that's oomf" and for me it's like "this girl has 4 alts and I have to keep them all blocked because I can't deal with them"

wish that half my mutuals weren't like, friends with someone who was so obsessive of me that they like, cyber-stalked me for a few months

I'm just a girl

two months left on my phone bill, not like, completely sure if I'm going to be in the US another year so idk, I'll figure something out

like I'm not going to, I refuse to. But gods I am so scared of fucking this one up. She's literally too perfect for me.

dawg if I fuck this one up I might just kill myself

had to post this one on the priv because she would die of embarrassment if her friends found out I clicker trained her

y'all don't even know how cute my girlfriend's bark is, it's kinda fucked up tbh

so like idk, suffering from success? I'm too perfect?

like it was literally just "you're too perfect for me so it's hard to rip myself away from you to get work done" she just couldn't find the words to say that earlier in the day; and y'know I get it, there's been days where I've wanted to work on things but it's hard to be like "talk to you later :D"

yesterday was just, rough, and me being me I catastrophized down to being like "okay my girlfriend isn't doing great today and wont tell me why, I must've fucked up in some way, or maybe she's regretting dating me." So when she finally wasn't busy I just, talked to her about it, and it was okay

why do they call it a parking garage when you of in the parking out leave the car

y'know the relationships I've been through made me who I am today, and that's okay

like, I'm still better than I used to be. Being in a relationship that's actually good for me helps a lot. But like, idk, whenever I have time to process things I just get stressed out