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I learnt a new word of Hookland dialect today – wodwak. It's used to describe the sensation that a wood or even a specific tree is watching you. That moment when your psychic skin won't let you deny that bark-browed eyes are upon you. – #MattAdams

I have successfully sorted, pruned, and reorganized my external hard drive.

I have backups of the final audio and script of everything I've released (save 1 show, working on it,) and separate zip files backed up to the cloud.

Please cheer for my data management.

ok, /that/ is funny ask fuck.

For fuck's sake.

Make more things. Make all the things Make so many things you forget the world is on fire.

I mean.......

(I know, I know, but I didn't even get like, a miniseries out or something. It's probably better for my mental and physical health but.................................................)

Damn, I was going through the LoN stuff for ADYB and did I really only release 2 things this year? I'm kind of disappointed in myself.

Covid negative as of Monday, at least. Though I'll likely test again today.

Alright. Fine. I accept I am actually, properly sick.

Masking up and sanitizing all the things today, staying home tomorrow.

Deeply annoyed about this.

Starting to watch Utopia (UK) again, this time with the boyfriend. It’s among the most excellent series I’ve watched and I hope he enjoys it as much as I do.

I’ve come to realize people think slurs are just words that hurt our feelings. No. Slurs, particularly the N-word, F-word, antisemitic terms etc. aren’t taboo because of that. It’s because historically when these terms are said they precede or pair with pitchforks, torches, lynchings & gas chambers.

Hey.

Tell people when they do good job.

When you like the stuff they make.

When you like the characters they’ve created.

The stories they’ve told.

Nobody hears it as often as you think bc everyone thinks everyone hears it all the time.

Trust. They don’t.

Tell. Them.

Well. I broke down maybe 10% of the tree clippings pile, and filled out green waste bin which is great, but also have rendered my hands useless for at least the next day or two, which is not.

At least i finished all my other house chores first.

Every so often, I’ll be sitting here minding my own business, and then I’ll remember Shelterwood’s Professor Rhys’s perfect man, and feel incredibly sad.

That's what I got, despite all my answers being like

What type do you like best? Grass type.
What do you use most often? Grass type.
What's got the most fun powers? Grass type.
What type has the coolest design? Grass type & Fairy type.

But nope. Psychic.

So there.

I did my phototherapy for the first time in four days because i really, really needed to.

And now the headache is fully back.

Yay.

Med that should fix it will be ready to get tomorrow. Very ready for that.

I just spent about 15 minutes on my computer and the headache is returning.

I guess we're not doing that today.

Fuck.

I have a thing to go to today that I really, really want to do, but I think this migraine might keep me from, and i hate it.

But god am i exhausted.

It’s entirely worth it, but I really wish I didn’t have to do injections twice a week.

After 5 years of this, the areas I can inject myself are incredibly over-used. Thank god @erikseguinte.com will do them for me when he can.

kid-in-the-brown-hoodie is a whole-ass ideology

I will repost any and all fan art of this King I receive.

Great form. 10/10 no notes. Except Fuck ICE.

Use terms that makes sense to them, offer some grace for only now figuring this out, give them something that’s tangibly useful to do with their truck. Or their nail gun. Or their ability to carry things.

I am not being facetious or sarcastic.

Meet them where they are, in the language they speak.

There’s something so powerful about seeing a man moved to tears:

headacheheadacheheadache

headache week 4.

Gets better when I'm home at least.

Probably need to do something about the work lights. Boss has offered to get me a lamp. May need to look into this.

The absolutely casual, confident way she's spraying that lighter fluid is beautiful.

Wondered why i’ve been waking up every couple of hours tonight with nightmares. Apparently just forgot to take my nighttime meds. Not great.

Let’s see if we can still get a couple more hours of sleep, unlikely as it is.

I had completely forgotten that Envoy training is basically just the Midas Touch re-sleeved.

I don’t think I’m even aware of how much this book affected my transhumanist paradigm.