Venus

I feel like he's waiting for me to get th3rapy first before he indulges again, which my first sesh is this Thurs morn but we're doing group trivia Wed night. So idk, hopefully he'll take me home again & we can talk. I think he's the only person in the world worth having kids for...

im awake unfortunately

Hmmm it was the first day of my period today & all I had was a protein bar, I was 145.6 too. Could be worse ig. My crush absolutely didn't want to kiss on Friday, but he was glued to my side & drove me home when he didn't need to. I felt like I annoyed him at the end tho :/ he wants 3 kids...

So sorry for your loss love 🫂 the pendant is a beautiful idea. Remember grief doesn't happen all at once and emotions come in waves, you just have have to wade through them. Wishing you all the strength you need to live through this ♡

My mommy brought me a cinnamon roll 😋 i actually dont feel bad eating this at all, im down 10lbs & my muscl3s are fuckin huge. Im gonna look so good tomorrow

Omg my crush might not go to ff tomorrow, im gonna look so good in my baby blue dress & matching nails :(((( I have to try to convince him 😫

I had my 3 tangerines & cup of oj, then I was made these fried yucca :) it was delicious! I didn't realized I haven't had something hot to eat in a while lol

The 43 yr old texted me good morning 💀 I might not answer...

Love you mantis 🩵

But for good news this morning, I'm 145.4 today 😍 I look so fucking GOOD oh my god. Officially 10 lbs down since leaving that fucker ✌️ my a$$ is fat as hell too I really recommend working out 3x a week, I honestly look sk1nnier as a muscular 145 than I did as a sk1nny f@t 120

Omfg someone gave me ANOTHER fucking get h3lp report on insta 🤬 ive been happier this week than I have been in YEARS genuinely so fucking insulting. Rly considering posting something abt that bc im not calling a fucking hotl1ne. If YOU think I have a pr0blem, why is the onus on ME to reach out???

Okay so aside from the pumpkin chai latte, I had a cookie dough protein bar and 2 slices of apple ♡ i got my na1ls done today, do you like them? I hope they help me s3duce my crush into mak1ng out again 😫 especially if I show up even sk1nnier to ff than I was the first time 😍 probs not tho lmao

Oh i forgot to put what I had yesterday. So aside from tangerines & oj, b4 the gym I had a buttload of spinach in a giant cheese slice wrap, another tangerine, & about 10 pretzel chips w mustard. Actually kind of a lot for what ive been having lately but it didnt matter bc I look skinny as hell rn

🥺💔 I hope they come back 2 u mantis

YALL LMAO I just got coffee with this 43 yr old man that saw me at my allergist office & it was such a great time just talking to somebody older??? I must look great in this dress bc even my nurse was like you look beautiful (even w a bunch of acne??) I got a pumpkin chai latte from a local place :)

I'm the exact same weight as yesterday :/ its fine I guess, I do feel really swollen today and I drank a lot of water yesterday. So I'm trusting the process today. Its core day at 7 so im a little excited. Its an iron day also, oj & 3 tangerines coming up.

😑 makes sense, im friends with a bunch of fatasses that have never worked out for an hour and a half before 🙄

UH OH. I POSTED MY WORKOUT ON MY STORY.

I had a protein bar before I went to gym & burned 700 cals, I hope I lose a lot of weight tomorrow

😝😝😝😝 BESTIEEEEEE

Its not parasocial when its in my head too 🤪

Breaking my fast with this cinnamon roll yogurt! Haven't eaten since the tangerines & oj yesterday. It's actually fantastic. I was craving cinnamon rolls but I didnt want to make any. I was 147.6 today, down 8.8 lbs. I have double training booked today, I'm gonna try to eat a little more.

i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots i do not gain from carrots

🙂‍↕️🩵 there are so many people who are deserving of my light & love!!! I refuse to waste another second ❤️‍🩹

🥹🩵 I'm going to do everything i can to enjoy this life ♡

🫂 thank you rhys but its really nothing to be sad about! I have no regrets and I couldn't be happier with my decisions. I have been laughing more than ever this week. It's hard but I knew i had to do it.

I think the universe is rewarding me for finally doing the right thing ❤️‍🩹

🥹🫂 thanks sweetie ive been focusing on having a good time with my friends and they are all such good genuine people to me. They're taking me out on f1rst fr1day too coming up & im so excited to finally live the life ive wanted for so long now

This is the only consistent food I get recently lol. I lost another 1.2 lbs also, up to 7.2 down total 🙃 can't wait to be 10lbs down, this is the best gift my ex could have given me LMAO

Its 4 and ive been up for an hour 🙃 the only things I ate yesterday were a square of chocolate and a small trad3r jo3 cheeto at my friend's house. So skinny of me, I know 🙂‍↕️ so im glad I ate what I could when I greened tf out at the party yesterday, it was more sustenance than indulgence atp