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its done

Just know that though sometimes I had anger and sadness towards you guys, I never stopped loving you and everyone else for giving me a sense of belonging, of companionship

And even when it’s long gone and past

You all shaped me, for better or worse, into who I am now

Thank you for everything

So

Goodbye Kenna

Don’t forgive me, don’t forget me

We will all move on, we will grow and change, and we’ll be okay

I know for sure that all of us will make it as long as we give it our honest try

This is just one of mine, of many to come in the future

Feel what you want, all of it is valid

This was a horrible rant vent thread thing that doesn’t really amount to anything much by a person who has done bad things, and will continue to do bad things

But I hope to everything that this is something different

That my next actions will be right for once

And I’ll take it all in stride

I don’t know if this is my attempt of accountability

Cause at this point, how can I ever convince you that I’m not gonna be seeing you anymore outside of retweets from those that’ll still have me

I guess I’m just doing something I think is the right thing to do after all this time

never forgive me
tell whoever you want so that they can know too
let everyone else judge on their own accord, i trust them to do what they need to

It is all my fault

just

don't let me become a boogeyman, please
i thought about the same thing happening and i never wanted that

we need to move on

ya got to it already

for some reason i thought that was Zeta's VA

oh that was
pfft i legit didnt know
brainless retweetin bruh

also tf u mean my guy i havent been the guy since 3 2022

@gothicharpy.bsky.social

never forgive me
tell whoever you want so that they can know too
let everyone else judge on their own accord, i trust them to do what they need to

It is all my fault

just

don't let me become a boogeyman, please
i thought about the same thing happening and i never wanted that

we need to move on

maybe your callout worked this time
maybe im just tired this morning cause i got bigger responsibilities now

maybe its something else
i dont know

but i know that i don't want to hurt you any more
you just have to trust me on that

here are others
picarto.tv/ItsJustAnony...
www.tumblr.com/im-your-dail...
www.youtube.com/@someidiotnotingsins1064
ko-fi.com/geboi
dont remember right now if i got any other accounts on other socials but these are the big ones
ill have someone remind u or somethin later if you really need

@gothichlavender.bsky.social
here
believe me or not, up to you
but i promise this is the one alt i have on bluesky, you'll know my alt account to block on Twitter too

Just know that though sometimes I had anger and sadness towards you guys, I never stopped loving you and everyone else for giving me a sense of belonging, of companionship

And even when it’s long gone and past

You all shaped me, for better or worse, into who I am now

Thank you for everything

So

Goodbye Kenna

Don’t forgive me, don’t forget me

We will all move on, we will grow and change, and we’ll be okay

I know for sure that all of us will make it as long as we give it our honest try

This is just one of mine, of many to come in the future

Feel what you want, all of it is valid

This was a horrible rant vent thread thing that doesn’t really amount to anything much by a person who has done bad things, and will continue to do bad things

But I hope to everything that this is something different

That my next actions will be right for once

And I’ll take it all in stride

I don’t know if this is my attempt of accountability

Cause at this point, how can I ever convince you that I’m not gonna be seeing you anymore outside of retweets from those that’ll still have me

I guess I’m just doing something I think is the right thing to do after all this time

You can probably find out the other times I sent stuff in the secret chat thing if you look hard enough

I contemplated sending you money on Kofi after seeing ya on Twitch

it didn’t feel right even though it was the only thing that could genuinely support you

Maybe you’d take it as a debt, I dunno

Now for confessions

I thought you were the voice actor for Zeta on that one retweet, okay
I forgot that was GarbageGothic whoops

I was the one who judged for the dawn pic idea, maybe cause I was kinda tired seeing all the morally-questionable suggestions of ur OCs

I also wished for you to be okay

If we do meet again, I’ll remember to remind you if you forget

You deserve that much; to know when you’re seeing someone who hurt you before

Nothing will change the things I did, the people I hurt

All I can do is move on

Maybe in time, I’ll finally let go
Maybe

Until then, we just have to live

I will continue to live, I promise

I will let my life end when it ends, not because I feel it needs to

Be it naturally or accidentally, whatever

I won’t blame you if you come over to do it yourself, just leave it to only me okay

I’m the only one that hurt you like this, not anyone else

All I can realistically hope for now is for no one to hate me

But I keep doing things that make it hard not to

Entirely my fault
But I still try

And I don’t know when to stop until you finally block me
And then I get hurt all over again

This fucking sucks
I suck

I’m a horrible person
I’m sorry

I’m such a child

I don’t know if I’ll ever be an adult

I’m the eldest in my family and all I’m worried about is losing you all

I don’t really care for much besides

I just wish for you all to succeed
and to be a part of it, or at least see

I don’t need the closeness that we once had

Really

Who was hurting from things I didn’t know about

Who changed a lot, while I still stayed the same

You were the one who moved on, truly

Not me

I know what I have to do
But I don’t want to do it

I don’t want to never see you again
Not just your art

You

I’m sorry

I don’t want to

Im sorry

Even afterwards when I was sure I wouldn’t be that extreme, it still hurt when some of you would unfollow or not follow back

As if I deserved it

It hurt, then it didn’t

And even then, I still followed you if you allowed

Cause I wanted to support you all

Even you
Who changed accounts a lot

And I’m wishing things could change

That I could do something other than following you all from the sidelines, giving money or “gifts” that I thought you guys would like

I thought for a time you guys still followed me on Twitter just to make sure I didn’t go through with it

That’s my selfishness

Maybe it’s obsession; it does feel like it sometimes

Maybe desperation for a time long gone, never to exist again

I don’t fully know what it is nowadays

But it is a problem that I didn’t address till now

I focused on other things instead
still trying college
trying to be there for my family

I know that nothing will make it right about me not letting go

Of me making alt accounts to still see you

Of finding some accounts I shouldn’t have seen

Of not trying more to leave you all alone

I don’t know if I would have fully

Its not love, though I did love you all as my friends

I recovered enough to try and move forward as a person

I tried to do other things; college, family, games, other friends

Still I didn’t let go

I didn’t want to

And I still lurked around you
Watching from my main that you didn’t know existed on Bluesky

Sometimes reaching out
Mostly watching you