Luna

these xylitøl ramùnə candïes from the conbini are surprisingly helpful for curbing my stress eating habits.

they're 88 caIs per bag but one tab is so ridiculously sweet i feel nauseous eating more than 1 or 2

thank you mootie ❤️ i might make a separate thread about it later once i gather my thoughts

here might actually be one of the few places i CAN talk about it since said ex friend and his two life partners apparently (according to other ppl I know) have been keeping tabs on me and my hb's mains... 💀

tbh

there were a lot of other things about this ex friend I found really weird but going into all of it would get long and also the rest is not really 3d related

either way husband and friend had a falling out a few months later from something unrelated so they're now thankfully an ex friend

tbh even then i found weird AF but I brushed it off because i thought he was trying to mean well and also he was my husband's friend so

later on i found out he approached another friend privately after she was in the hospital after a crisis and he said some really creepy shit.....

he said he wanted me come to him anytime i felt those thoughts bc he didn't want me to "feel alone"

i sort of laughed it off awkwardly but he also tried to encourage me to share pics now and then to "make sure i was doing okay".....

at first he got really apologetic and told me about how he went through similar struggles

then a few days later i was alone in the d$c voice chat alone getting ready to stream some games and ex friend popped in.

it got to the point where i got frustrated enough to straight up tell him to stop but he STILL pushed and was like "why are you saying no it's just candy and I want you to have it"

and i (stupidly) told him the topic stresses me out immensely bc dïs0rdërd thoughts and all

he'd often prod me about wanting to order delivery for us or send us candy from the US in the mail

i didn't mind ex friend getting my husband stuff but i didn't really want anything personally. but he got weirdly pushy when i tried to turn him down.

i'm sort of having a late realization that an ex friend of my husband might have been a creep all along

especially once he found out about my eating issues

"PLEASE EAT SOMETHING??"

"k chicken nuggets"

"PLEASE EAT SOMETHING THAT'S NOT CHICKEN NUGGETS?!?"

might be bc i grew up on $1 tv dinners once per a day courtesy of my mom not giving a shit

then i married a guy whose reaction to the food i ate was "jfc you live like this?"

yes. kid cuisine fish sticks were f in great actually.

im finally at the point i can just res without really thinking about it im soaring

trying to get enough prot ein while res is rough

baby leaf and thinly sliced carrots with low cal dressing is one of my fav lazy girl meals

rly not a fan of blocks not being private on here

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yeah! it feels good bc i had finally gone below 60 back in nov but it didn't last partly bc i was put on a diet plan for a different health issue. hope to stay on track this time

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