Spicy Sabby 🔞

Dis all over my feed so why not?

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Something something something, I just wanna see what happens

Boredom and experimentation?

*Hugs*

No. You didn't. Sometimes I wander too deep in my own thoughts and make myself cry. Sometimes almost too easily. It has nothing to do with you

you would to a friend. A best friend if you will. Heck, sometimes people are attracted to others that stay to themselves. It creates mystery.

Maybe that's the lesson that people needed to be taught. That you gotta be comfortable with yourself because at the end of the day, that's all you have is yourself. Even though you have been for a while and really want connection
I'm not saying be self centered, but like you gotta treat yourself as

For what? You didn't do anything

Ugh even thinking and mentioning this made me tear up again.

Seems reasonable. When I started praising myself during such intimate times I started crying, not just because I'm sure that no one would treat me with such tenderness, but it's like I'm healing myself. I guess it's a step to loving myself like I actually have value in the world.

Does anyone kinda give themselves positive affirmations when they climax or something like that? Just curious

Also I think its safe for me to say. I have a praise kink

Ok goodbye

Always ask artists for permission rather than forgiveness because we have really long memories and a bottomless capacity for both incredible generosity and incredible pettiness.

a screenshot from Animal Crossing New Horizons, where two characters (a red otter with a white beanie, and the player wearing a striped bathing suit and brown cowboy hat) float in blue water. a white and red chat bubble reads, in blue lettering “Pascal: Talented folks are just normal folks who practice something more than other folks, maaan.”

that’s what I’ve been saaaayying maaan

Done. Deer in headlights

Welp we did it, buuut.. I kinda don't even wanna do it. Maybe I'll show it to a few people Im ok with? Idk how it's gonna go.

Why shouldn't I? I have been proven time and time again that no one values me that same way I value others. To others, I'm just another number.Another rando. Another NPC. Hell, not even my own FAMILY treat me as an equal AND the space I THOUGHT I'd fit in,I don't fit in. So why shouldn't do it?

ATP I believe there's nothing I can do other than just get rid of myself. Maybe if I do that, the whole world would rejoice, since I'm such a annoying little bug.

to make that shit happen? HOW! And yet, I can't even express my feelings to no one without making them feel uncomfortable, making myself look mentally unstable, unapproachable and look like the villain.
I'm so tired. I'mma either just run away or kill myself, because this just doesn't make sense.

But yet my dumb ass STILL want to try to talk to others who don't even care to remember I even exist. I have to PERFORM for people to say "HEY I HERE! " I have to do constant favors to get people to acknowledge me and it's so tiring. This is going on online AND IRL. How the actual FUCK did I manage

This yea was just a reminder for me not to trust anyone. Even those who are seem nice. Because they don't care about me. People just like the art I make and my looks. Not me.
If I post any art or myself, that gets likes galore, but if its about something in my mind, I get crickets. Nothing.

Oh. Ok

Here, there anywhere. Doesn't matter. No one who looks at this account didn't even bother to go to my other socials if they already follow me didn't even check on me after noticing this account was gone. Heck I don't think anyone knew this was gone.

Not to sound cynical and rude, but I'm just asking. Who is "we're"? No one even bothers to talk to me because they "don't wanna be burden" even when I say I'm fine with people talking to me and its no bother at all, and heck, no one even remembers they even follow me.

Not much of spicy 18+ account. More like a very depression and venting account here, amirite?

That doesn't matter. As long as you're offering free art, people who see that will take advantage of it. They ain't looking for friendly bonding. They looking for free art.

I feel so outcasted amongst the outcasts.

ooksurvvfbxixksksnzn God I have SOOOO much I wannna say, but I'll save it for another day.

No fr. I should just start charging people to see my art to see if they're just here to get art, or to see the spicy art or what cuz I'm seeing a LOT of people who come to me when it's beneficial to them.And this is coming from a fandom that's all "We're friendly" "This fandom is so nice" like NO?

Yea. That. Lemme try that again