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now that i’m back to streaming somewhat consistently, i feel like im able to apply for opportunities

so i applied to the twitch charity creator club and twitch women’s unity guild eeep🤞

at times life is really hard, but other times i’m reminded of how lucky i am and how many cool things i get to do wow im so grateful

the expensive keyboard that i preordered nine months ago which got delayed three times got delivered to my old address despite their customer service confirming the address change in february and my receipt having the new address IM SO MAD

to taper my medication slowly and accurately i got it compounded in a liquid form and my insurance actually approved my claim to cover it which is a HUGE relief because i was not looking forward to the possibility of spending hundreds of dollars in this process phew

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me sucking the tears back into my stupid face as soon as my coworker walks back into the office

women who have a girl friend that they can go to when they need someone and a shoulder to cry on don’t know how good they have it

having to listen to my supervisors voice every single day is psychological warfare

my coworker loves pumpkin as much as me and brought us iced pumpkin lattes this morning pls i always work directly with the sweetest women :’)

my loser ass ex has rebranded at least five times now at this point lmao how embarrassing

my one sibling who lives even remotely close is moving back to the other side of the country😭

i’m not mad at him because i understand why, but i’m really sad not knowing when i’ll get to see him again

i’m all for a little edgy humour here and there but i’m sorry why are we using a term that’s based on violence against women?

got in an argument with irl friends on a server about someone’s nickname having “wifebeater” in it trying to explain how messed up that is and *im* the one being treated like i’m the wrong so that’s how my day is going :))))

only just recently realized the comfy bra i’ve been wearing for years doesn’t fit right so i thought i’d actually measure myself since i’ve been wearing the same size for fifteen years

dude i always thought i was an A cup, turns out i’m a whole C or maybe even D?! what

everyone i know is getting married and aaaa😭 it makes my heart so happy to see

weirdo behaviour when a childhood bully (who has a family) and the man who abused me as a child (who is a school bus driver now????) follow me on socials

maybe idk leave me alone

so appreciative of friends who, even though i feel too sad to socialize, play games with me, lift my spirits, and make me laugh harder than i have in a long time

weaning myself off my SSRI has been unsuccessful in the past so im looking at a tapering method which goes VERY slow as to reduce the amount of withdrawal and neurological harm so i think im going to try that

doing it is going to take over 4 years😭 but it seems to be the safest way

being invited to a friends wedding is the biggest honour like… you want,, ME? at your special day?!? pls i am going to cry

at this point in my life i’m the happiest and in the best place i’ve been since 2016

if only i could figure out my major issues with tiredness and exhaustion i would be unstoppable and could actually do things

she’s not even going, she’s just in it to fling the pellets all over the place😭

23 more days i am ANXIOUS feeling like i’m running out of time for all the packing and cleaning i still have to do

but also glad that it’s finally coming up, it’s going to be so relieving to have it all over and done with

the world is so fucking scary right now i don’t even have any words

y’all can download the new brainrot app, i’m going to be productive with my time and doing healthy things for my brain like reading and learning a new language

mine is just a big backlog due to mental health executive dysfunction😭 i made a tax appointment and i’m sure they expect people to go in with last year’s form or a few years’ back at most but im just going to walk in there like…… so listen here’s the situation and i apologize lol

i’m going to feel so bad walking into a tax appointment and handing them twenty-five pages of tax forms that need to be filed

“AFFORDABLE”??????

trying to find somewhere to live here is a full time job itself🫠

i saw my grandma and it was a wonderful visit, she was smiling and seemed happy to see us🥹 and when i told her i love her she said “i love you too” which is HUGE since she’s lost most of her ability to verbalize from her strokes, my dad even started tearing up it was so special

go off

finally forcing myself to have motivation to clean my place and find this in a place where NO water should be (especially when the electrical panel for the house is in a cubby directly above this one???)

this house is literally rotting i am so sick of living here