doran

i have assignments to catch up on, finals and essays due all next week, and i am being evicted next week. i am beyond cooked

getting evicted during finals week cause my late grandma was the only tenant listed on the lease and i was only there as an informal caretaker 😇

happy thanksgiving though 😇

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my mom was even like my sister would probably hide the fact my grandma is dead (when it happens) and just have a decaying corpse at home and i'm like yeah that makes sense when i hear all those stories on the news about family members living with the deceased.

my sister keeps trying to kidnap my grandma because she can't accept that she is at the end of her life. i'm aware we all cope in different ways but my sister's way of handling it has caused so much trouble. literally what am i even supposed to do in this situation

cw death, grief

canon g7x

i started my thanksgiving break and just stayed in bed all day despite needing to catch up on school. even now my sisters are texting me nonstop venting about their beef with each other. i really wish i didn't exist right now.

eating ice cream mochi while ignoring my phone being blown up with texts cause my sisters are venting to me about how much they hate each other. even with a looming family death they cannot put aside their differences.

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late stage alzheimer's and stomach cancer (no one noticed the cancer symptoms because they lined up with symptoms of alzheimer's and whatnot) so i just told her idk. the night we took her to hospital, my sister cried for like 4 hours straight. i don't know how to comfort her.

i am no stranger to grief so i guess i know how to go through the process fairly well. but my sister does not handle it well at all. today she kept asking me when is grandma coming home and why is she still in the hospital. i didn't have the heart to tell her she's not coming back or that she has

cw death, grief

thank you, i really appreciate it 🥹
and yeah i feel like i dissociate frequently as a way to block things out but i wasn't sure if calling it that was insensitive (like the way people say they have adhd or autism when it's just them being quirky)

thank you but it's not me oops my grandma is in hospice with not much longer to live and i'm just here in the hospital trying to catch up on studies and everything just doesn't feel real

in a cycle of bed rotting and dissociating in the hospital

concert is over, back to depression

never kill yourself letterboxd will save you!!

omg same 🥹 i forgot how good the reze arc is because it took years to come out

thought she was gonna flake on me cause she wasn't answering me all day about our movie plan and it turns out she literally woke up at 3 pm

putting my 2 cents in got more expensive since they stopped making pennies

literally why do i always get sick after the gym (i do wipe down the equipment and use hand sanitizer)

i get so emotional thinking about his transcendental performance in taste of cherry (1997) rest in peace to one of the greatest gifts in iranian cinema

this is the second time my professor emailed the class to stop using AI for their essays like OMG JUST FAIL THEM 🙏😭😭😭

i thought it said you became a bartender and i was like yeah i'd surround myself with alcohol too after nursing 😭

i love those moments where you feel life is worth living (just watched a really good movie)

i dont even fuck around anymore so why am i still finding out 😞