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this is probably some sort of adhd sign i have to get diagnosed on but never do ughhhh

when i try to not interrupt others i always end forgetting what to say when it's my turn and have to ask them to "wait i know i have it in my head just a second ago"

i dont wanna interrupt others but still sometimes do. when i feel like someone is done with whatever they're saying someone else starts to talk

i think i might have gotten better at it but it's so difficult to know when i can talk

i cant help interrupting others cuz i dont even realize im doing it, theres things i wanna say when someone else is talking and if i dont say it right then and there i forget about it really quickly

sometimes i feel bad when im leading the conversation for too long cuz i keep on yapping and dont know when to stop

heck i dont even know WHEN to stop until someone says something

this is why i cant talk with my classmates 😭😭😭 i always mess up

should i ask if i could work another day??? idkkkkk

i usually have work during the weekend and thought there was still a while until the meeting ughhhh so i was thinking i could take the day off but now it's messed up

aaaaa the pressure ☹️ i was supposed to help with the group project during the weekend but i didnt realize it's the same days ive got work hell hell hell this is stupid i should have known but i still forgot

i wanna talk and interact i really do... but we dont have anything in common even the one classmate who i used to talk to is too busy with other things so we havent talked about anything outside of school work

met with a friend i havent seen for while and reminded of how fun interacting with friends were

im not close with my classmates and it sucks, most of the time when they decide to sit with me it's just them talking

oomf followed back 🥹

omg finally got this account back

i keep my expectations so high just to barely even doing the minimum

i tell myself in order to keep my life together i gotta do this and that and thats what becomes my lullaby which helps me to go to sleep

but the moment i wake up i just dont have the motivation or just forget it (THIS HAPPENS EVERY SINGLE DAY, HONESTLY SO EXHAUSTING)

i hate just being an overall better "writer" inside my head, i could think of sm things at once, even being able to keep them coherent and imagine scenarios on what i wanna say during conversations but the moment i have to actually write something down or say something I FORGET ALMOST ALL OF IT

i was trying to stay optimistic since i recently became "closer" to my friends (who's more just like close classmates) because of that one trip

NO THE WHOLE WEEK

ughhhh this whole day was terrible tho so its been happening more frequently

that always happens, theres sm i wanna say when im just feeling terrible but i would later feel better, forget a bit about it, find it difficult to remember and then randomly feel terrible again after remembering why things just suck

i was bottling a lot of emotions just a while ago but i might feel better now

just got off work now

better say this asap since im already getting some unknown interactions:

DO NOT INTERACT/FOLLOW
IF YOU AINT A MOOT TO MY MAIN

PREFERABLY USE AN ALT PLS AND TELL ME WHO U ARE (DMS ARE OPEN)

ill be really opening up with irl problems here and i wouldnt be comfortable to do so if this isnt followed

first thing i have to do is actually getting off work tho

cuz theres TONS i wanna say about working in my current job as restaurant customer service

newly made alt account and im thinking of making it into a rant account