Nyx, a backup doll 🔞

and it's somehow Alex Garland's best movie, which is really saying something

as someone with abandonment issues, the idea of forever chemicals is strangely reassuring

a rarely asked question

diagram depicting a coronal incision. The scalp is pulled over the face, revealing the underlying skull

they’re doing this to me next week

(cw: surgical diagram. It’s not very detailed, but it could be upsetting)

my roommate picked a bad week to suddenly come down with possible mono…

Besides not having her around to help, she keeps threatening to spit in my mouth

name entry screen for Kid Icarus. The letters “N,” “Y,” and “X” are next to each other

I didn’t actually pick it myself, but I do like how easy it is to input my name in video games. The letters are often contiguous

it’s kinda transphobic that I have to detox from most substances before the surgery

I feel almost defective in that I don’t really have a breeding kink. That’s the only one you’re *supposed* to have

selfie showing off the haircut. It's a chin-length bob

got the haircut. I chickened out and just went with a bob, rather than something super short

I’ve read a bunch of Yukio Mishima’s novels for some reason, and a lot of them are about twink death (literal) as an alternative to twink death

trying to figure out if that would be hot, or too many things at once. Drone, pony play, and I guess you get ordered around by an old but good-natured bear

ondansetron is cool as a nausea drug that works directly on your neurotransmitters, but what most people won’t tell you is that it also sounds like the name of a robotic reindeer

the eyes of the anesthetized lab mouse stared up at her, unblinking. Two orange-red orbs resembling salmon roe.

She smeared the ointment over them, following protocol, and breathed a sigh of relief as the eyes disappeared into a milky haze. Less scrutiny for what would follow.

DM me later this month if you’re interested in the nudest of nudes (skull pics)

just bought the last medical supplies on my list (scar gel and ointment) and paid one of my friends for tolls and gas money. I think... that's mostly everything.

Help covering it all, and help with everything going forward would still be very appreciated ^_^

pronouncing “labubu” like Yogi Bear would

we gotta do a heist. A heist for my bones

just spoke with the surgeon. No skull bone souvenirs for me unfortunately, but they agreed to share the surgery footage so I can go sicko-mode with it

she has something personal against littles, etc. It’s to the point where I feel like she must be hiding something, because she brings it up to complain spontaneously

if only I could come up with excuses for everything else. Honestly surprised that she hasn’t called me out for carrying around a stuffed animal everywhere

getting baby shampoo, which my roommate is probably going to side-eye me for, but I have the excuse that it’s needed for postoperative cleaning

I hope you read my sleepyposts in the same tone that you would all those accounts that type in the voice of their cat

fated to a neutral end. Maybe you’d rather be brainwashed and licking the boots of your sworn enemy, but instead it’s bittersweet. Perhaps ambiguous in a literary sort of way.

You feel a strange sense of loss.

I like the way that you have to turn your head at an angle when eating a hard-shell taco. More foods should involve maneuvers

catgirl who claims to be a haruspex,

but you think she’s just fucking around with those bird entrails for the fun of it

getting a gender-affirming orbital osteotomy because they misheard me asking for a trans-orbital lobotomy

beenn havijg anxiety sttacks and crying dspells all all day, but I’m sleepy now. Thatbsks sunstances!

wishing I couod cuddlie someone though

thinking about it more, the last time may have actually been in Japan, at a little barber shop by a train station that charged like 1000 yen.

It was run by this tough-looking bald guy who never gave me shit for requesting women’s cuts

setting up a haircut for the first time since I started transitioning. I've just been growing it out and trimming it myself for like 7 years X_X

5/6 is latex/rubber day (go-mu) :3