what is wrong with you?: a multi-part series

i know my mom just doesn't want her family to implode but i wish they wouldn't act like i'm an idiot for suggest i might not want to be a guy

(the reason they wouldn't already suspect this is because i barely talk out of fear of being ridiculed at every possible moment)

and then my mom's gonna be all like "don't ruin this for yourself! just stop caring about this for one day! your family doesn't like it when you act like this!"

got really lightheaded and nearly passed out 2 nights ago thinking about how my 18th birthday is destined to be fucking miserable because they aren't going to listen to me when i ask to be called my preferred name