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idk man something just doesnt feel right

bpd crash out coming on. i can feel it and its driving me fucking crazy.

bleh

just feel so defeated some days. being at home just leaves me in my head all day and i hate it. i want more. i wish i had more and received more from people. i hate it.

not feeling very cash money tonight fellas. kinda wanna cry aha

i wish i was born a man.
i hate not being able to provide in the ways i want to.
i hate that im in this fucking body.

i just don't want to exist anymore. im tired of living in pain everyday. if its not physical then it's mental or emotional and im just sick of it.

just wanna cry. and cry and cry and cry and cry.

🥹🥹🥹

so confusing.

feelings are kinda hurt. ngl. trying to work through it and not pay attention to it but damn...

shit sucks.

the way this shit just keeps bubbling up inside of me and keeps growing more and more but i cant even mention it bc i already know the response im gonna get. im fucking dying and it hurts.

😞😞

i wish i didn't feel like people were ashamed of me or embarrassed of me. i just want to be shown off or posted about. idc if its 'childish' i just wish i was shown off more

so frustrated.

feeling so extremely alone and isolated is so fucking hard. i hate it so much. im so tired of one sided things. its so draining and exhausting. im tired.

hah

just want to throw up. i wish i mattered more.

watching people give the attention and care to others that you wish they would give to you is honestly just sickening.

especially when they give it to you after you've begged for so long bc you know they're only doing it bc they feel bad and not bc its genuine.

i have cried so much in the last 24 hours and somehow it just wont stop.

i just want to be cared for without having to beg for it

im so alone.

sad.

mood lately

this account honestly is just gonna be used as a vent account atp because nobody really follows me/interacts with me here

feeling frustrated and tired but also detached and empty. i just want to cry.

im tired of feeling like i have to remind people that i exist. im tired of constantly reaching out first. im tired of feeling like im forcing every single conversation i have with everybody.