Kibi

Little Lamb
#cotl

Thank youuuuuu

Next cross stitch project the lamb
It's super soothing ngl

Oh absolutely, I'm trusting for the next care house but if it's going to be a fluke again I'll just look around myself

Unfortunately this psychiatrist is really good it's just the first time she made me go somewhere not nice

I was so mad at my psychiatrist for just even telling me to try that care house you have no idea, now I'm not even sure if I should trust her completely again

I knoooow right
But eh the doc there was so mean from the beginning like I need accomodations and she just was "we can't do that for you bc we treat everyone equally" LIKE IDK SORRY FOR NEEDING ACCOMODATIONS DUE TO MY DISABILITY I GUESS

Oh yeah I didn't tell you guys the care house I had to go in, told us "we don't take the likes of you" very meeeean just bc of me being autistic, so we are searching for new care houses for my rehabilitation

Red panda fursona for girlfriend

Alien sona for myself

They are girlfriends
Drew these on a whim.
Adjusted sona for me and my gf
#furry #furryart #furryoc

My step father prepared to me some cards for my verbal shutdown in case I shutdown in the care house

But I need to do this. Absolutely. My life has become such a weird blob of bad attachments through mom and other fav persons. And I can't even cook for myself nor drink. I've age regressed badly due to my autistic burn out.

Honestly I'm super scared because this care house isn't prepared for autistic people let alone ADHDers. And I'm scared they won't take my phobia of needles seriously when they'll have to take my blood.

From what I saw on the dos and donts, I can keep my tablet, my Steamdeck, my 3ds, but not my PC, and I can only use a 20cm or less cable to charge my stuff. Which thankfully I bought recently.

I'll be hospitalized again in a care house as rehabilitation for my life (day to day life stuff which atm im incapable of doing) this 9th October.

Thanks! Though I'm not really back, I'm taking my time and waiting to enroll in rehabilitation center for my mental illness 😞 drawing for myself while waiting helps a ton

COSMIC, they.them, is a white furred lamb🐑 loves space and has audhd

Out of the hospital, new fursona. I've been obsessing with rams and lambs.
#furry #fursona #lamb #ram

Went to therapy today and they gave me this

This doesn't mean I'll stop drawing, I'll draw but for my sake only

I can't work for the life of me. My psychiatrist agreed. Once I'm out of this hospital I'll be finishing some commissions left to do, and leave some other stuff that was causing me stress.
I can't work two weeks straight to end up on a two year burn out

Thank you 💚

Also idk what they're giving me day and night but I'm alot dizzy and tired, I think it's sedatives to keep me calm. Which is weird as hell

Little sketches while I'm hospitalized.
A bit of venting mostly

Yeah he was, kudo though to the nurse that when I had the meltdown for that said "I'll fix it myself" to calm me down
Literally 2 second after my meltdown there were people fixing the toilet

I swear I'm going to have a meltdown again today, my heart is racing and I feel heavy

Hospitalized:
> fan sounds
> Bright ass lights
> Screaming old lady h24
> Ambulance and cars sounds h24

I have my headphones with canceling noise and YET ITS STILL A PROBLEM
Also good morning with a flooded bathroom And nurse telling me to flush the toilet and pray.

Thank you 💚

This was the last drawing I could do before august came in like a wrecking ball
My sweet Dev
I had it saved on my phone for a while, unsure if I should have showed anyone

Thank you very much 💚
I really appreciate it,,

My grumpy bear keeps me company but man, I miss mom, I miss my gf, I miss everyone
Yet I know I can't stay alone for long that's why I'm here

I'm hospitalized for poor mental health and honestly things are so bad rn