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I’ve been less active on here even after I promised I would try to show up more, and a big part of the reason for it is that the pain + physical therapy exercises take up just so much of my energy every day. I hadn’t even realized it until recently

That’s it, for now. I’m just. I’m tired, grandpa

And it’s great to daydream about getting top surgery one day but my back hurts Right Now. and so all I can do is special order some underwire bras and continue strength building in my back and shoulders, and hope that’s good enough, until a better opportunity arises

I got a professional bra fitting recently on my PT’s advice and that’s a whole other can of worms as someone NB leaning masc in fashion preferences (ma’am I’m not here for lacy lingerie I’m here for a support garment that does the job) but I learned my size is a “specialty stores only” kind of size

Short version: in the past, oh, decade? the only kind of support wear I’ve been able to find that fits ok has been sports bras (so— with no wires, no support from below). I am now in physical therapy trying to reverse the damage of leaving my shoulders to bear all that goddamn weight for 10+ years

Until we get private accounts I fear this is also gonna be my place to come and grumble about personal stuff……

Today the topic at hand is. back pain & shoulder problems. specifically back pain & shoulder problems related to bust size

“If your faith is so strong, then why are you shaking?” ♱.

Commission for @mxgoldenwood.bsky.social 💛

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GOD this is real 😭 I couldn’t believe it when I went to NC the other day and it was in the 70s!! Ended up just leaving my coat in the car lmao

Eurebus Nightflare

🪽 The first of three, First wielder of the Scythe of Divine Penance. 。

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Cropped work-in-progress: lineart for a drawing of my blood elf Erann. Seen in profile, he has bruising under his eyes and his nose is broken, with blood dripping down his face and onto his shirt. A hand, belonging to an unseen figure off-screen, is tangled in his hair and gripping the back of his head. That hand is the only thing holding him up as he stares straight ahead of him— dazed, but with a small smile just forming at the corner of his bloodied mouth.

Line art! WIP illustration of a recent RP scene that I keep thinking about

Maybe it’s unwise, going out of your way to piss off and provoke the guy who seems to be holding all the cards at the table. Maybe sometimes it’s worth it anyway

Promo graphic for a roleplay event in World of Warcraft. Event details are in bold text on the left side of the image, while my character Erann is shown on the right side. He is dressed up in a nurse's cap and an all-white, vaguely medical-looking uniform (complete with thigh-high boots). The text with event details reads as follows. "Eastern Kingdoms Fall Blood Drive in Eversong Woods, Quel’thalas. Help make a difference today," marked with an asterisk indicating a footnote. "When? Saturday, 29 November at 3PM (Server Time, PST). Where? Saltheril’s Haven, Eversong Woods (Horde, Wyrmrest Accord). Why? A community effort to help individuals with certain conditions that might require regular blood transfusions," with a dagger mark indicating a second footnote. The footnotes are as follows, in order. "1: Living donors preferred. Must have a naturally occurring pulse to donate." "2: Conditions not specified. Donated blood is distributed on the honor system. We work to assure that no blood goes towards fel or demonic rituals, or other purposes that may pose a risk to donors. However, we cannot verify or guarantee that recipients of donated blood are not vampiric or otherwise undead in nature."

It’s time for another blood drive (RP event)! This time in Horde territory, at Saltheril’s Haven in Eversong Woods!

Saturday, Nov. 29th at 3PM server time on Wyrmrest Accord, in Eversong Woods

Come on by and donate blood for friends in need, or request a blood donation of your own 🥰

Reference sheet of my character Erann, a blood elf priest from World of Warcraft. The left side features closeups of his face and head, shown forward and in profile. Two scars, one running under his eyes and one on the left side of his neck, can be seen in both. The middle and right side show full-body outfit concepts: an all-black formal robe with gold trim (for performing funeral rites and ceremonies), and a set of all-white vestments, also with gold trim (for day-to-day duties).

Wandering back in with a reference sheet for Erann that I realized I don’t remember posting before!

Promo graphic for a roleplay event in World of Warcraft. Event details are in bold text on the left side of the image, while my character Erann is shown on the right side. He is dressed up in a nurse's cap and an all-white, vaguely medical-looking uniform (complete with thigh-high boots). The text with event details details reads as follows. "Eastern Kingdoms Fall Blood Drive in Darkshire, Duskwood. Help make a difference today," marked with an asterisk indicating a footnote. "When? Saturday, 1 November at 2PM (Server Time, US Central). Where? Darkshire (Alliance, Moon Guard). Why? A community effort to help individuals with certain conditions that might require regular blood transfusions," with a dagger mark indicating a second footnote. The footnotes are as follows, in order. "1: Living donors preferred. Must have a naturally occurring pulse to donate." "2: Conditions not specified. Donated blood is distributed on the honor system. We work to assure that no blood goes towards fel or demonic rituals, or other purposes that may pose a risk to donors. However, we cannot verify or guarantee that recipients of donated blood are not vampiric or otherwise undead in nature."

It's happening! Erann is hosting a blood drive to help out his friends in need (of blood).

Saturday, Nov. 1st, at 2PM server time on (Alliance side) Moon Guard in Duskwood.

Come on out and donate blood to help the local 🩸🦇🤫population in Duskwood (or request some if you need it)!

WELL FOLKS I am giving up on my dreams of a faction neutral blood drive event in retail WoW. for now. but - that just means more blood drive events later on, so I can have some for both sides 🥰

I'm eyeing Darkshire on Saturday Nov 1st for the next upcoming event, keep an eye out for more info soon!

And they actually enjoy letting me express myself. They are here to help me, and they are not sighing when I open my mouth or ignoring me when I want to be heard.

And on that note— to the friends who may be reading this:

Thank you 💛

Fighting back against that line of thought and struggling to trust that these people wanted to be there, that they enjoyed the thing we were creating together.

And it’s a struggle!!!

But I’m posting this as a reminder for myself. My brain is in survival mode maybe, but my friends care about me

It’s very scary, I’m not gonna lie. I just wrapped up a big group activity I’d organized, and I’m fighting NOT to overthink every moment and NOT to be convinced that all the people who showed up, helped me put it together, who thanked me for planning and said they had fun… were just being polite

And I know this was never really their intention, but my god is it wild to look back on it all in hindsight and recognize the changes in myself. and to compare that with the groups I’m a part of now. to see myself starting to get comfortable with “shining” again, unabashedly grabbing the spotlight

I got infinitely more afraid of expressing myself for fear of rejection. Small rejections like somebody heaving a playfully tired sigh when I try to share an anecdote or a story, but bigger ones too, like being left out of group plans. Left out of a group tattoo that I only learned of after the fact

— then I guess they felt like it was their job to keep me grounded? And so that was what they did. A lot. And over time I realize that I got less outgoing, and talked less, and I got infinitely more self-conscious. Especially about asking my friends for attention or validation in any form at all

Going to just quietly post this one over here, lmao—- thinking about friendships and community and all of that tonight, and thinking about how my previous friend groups really didn’t give me a lot of room to “shine” if that makes sense

Like I was pretty outgoing when I joined this one group and—

THANK YOU IN ADVANCE 💖 and please feel free to DM me here or on Discord if you're interested in volunteering!

(planning a blood drive event and in-character he simply won't be able to do everything alone! not to mention - out of character, the turnout for my casual events so far has me thinking I may need one or two volunteers to give me a hand with some things, if I want to be able to host effectively!)

📣 Putting out a call for RP assistance with an upcoming event! 📣

Erann is gonna need some help for his next big plans....

Therefore... I am looking for WoW roleplayers (MG or WrA based) with any of the following character types:
✨ healer
✨ medic
✨ clergy
... who might like to help out!

Three available commission tiers, with examples for each. Black and White Sketch. Starting at: $25 headshot or bust. $35 half body. $45 full body. Color Sketch. Starting at: $35 headshot or bust. $45 half body. $60 full body. Lineart and Full Color. Starting at: $60 bust. $120 half body. Complex designs, armor, or no visual references: up charge of 10 to 20 percent each. Additional characters: full rate. Prettyboys and vampires: 10 percent discount. For vampires: discount applies if I get to draw them bloody.

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Let me draw your characters pretty please 🙏🏻

When I say my casual events have proven unpredictable … this is the kind of scene I’m thinking about 😂🥰

Lastly— if you can’t make this one or don’t have epsi, please don’t fret too much about missing it! I’ll be hosting more of these soon, in both epsi and retail!

(With that said, I’m learning these events can be unpredictable— so while faction loyalists won’t be welcome, other forms of in-character conflict may still arise 😂 and I cannot guarantee a 100% chill vibe the whole time…. but that’s just part of the fun 🥰)

This will be a faction-neutral gathering, hosted on the grounds of the Honeyhearth Meadery, so please no faction loyalist types from either side 💖

FOLKS IT’S HAPPENING AGAIN (in epsi this time)

I’m SO sorry this is such a last-minute announcement, I’ve had a wild week and forgot to post here, but Erann is hosting another wine-tasting!

We’ll be in epsi phase 207 starting at 1pm eastern (about two hours from now) so come join if you can!

Vykas 🥺💖

I just want to see them having a GOOD time!!

Meanwhile…. I still love how this is coming along!