Meda ♡

i think i should delete this app. i’m constantly writing here like it’s my diary but lately it’s been so bad and depressing that i don’t even press post most of the time which probably says a lot already about the content

maybe i should take a social media break or something

after getting through the needle thing in the morning i feel like i bodyswapped with someone or something, bc the way that i’ve been just doing stuff like a normal person??

i’ve done more in the last 48h than i’ve done during the entire month

felt like i had choi minho lvl hours in a day today bc i made an insane amount of wontons, eight burritos & 2 other meals for freezing, cleaned the freezer, did laundry, did homework, planned another two dishes i still want to freeze, had 4h of meetings, went to class & yeah got my blood work done🧍🏻‍♀️

*want to cry = am crying already just thinking about it

I’M NEARLY 27 AND I WANT SOMEONE TO HOLD MY HAND WHILE I GET BLOOD TESTS DONE AND A DAY OFF AFTER IT, THERE I SAID IT

i wish i didn’t ever have to have my veins pierced by needles idk why i’m like this

getting blood work done tomorrow morning and i literally want to cry and not go already idk how the fuck i’ll manage again it was so embarrassing the last time i went bc i nearly blacked out i hate it i hate it i hate it so much

just saw a picture of someone with absolutely perfect smooth and soft looking skin 😫 i don’t usually really let jealousy consume me, but i am always so so SO JEALOUS of people with beautiful skin, it makes my stomach lurch from feeling sick over such a thing. like damn, automatic pretty priviledge…

😭 not this happening to other people too! the way that i just haven’t eaten certain foods bc they were never available and i never got used to them

wikipedia turns 25 today! the last unenshittified major website! backbone of online info! triumph of humanity! powered by urge of unpaid randos to correct each other! somehow mostly reliable! "good thing wikipedia works in practice, because it sure doesn't work in theory" - old wiki adage

i hadn’t seen people talking about this here yet but had to do it when i saw it on tiktok

when i say i’m a lover girl i mean it 😩🤚

lovetype.org/en/test

ALSO ALSO she said i need to try a weighted blanket and gave a strong recommendation for it BUT GUESS WHO BOUGHT A WEIGHTED BLANKET JUST TWO DAYS AGO!! THIS GUY!!

for once i had great timing and also that blanket really is incredible, idek how it helps so much

also at one point she just stared at me after asking me a bunch of questions and just said that she will add checking (for more 😭) autism signs also to the pile of stuff and i was just sitting there like 😶😀👍

went to a doctor today and i was supposed to be there for an hour but she kept me there for TWO HOURS and i didn’t even notice 😭 like yeah that’s amazing that she really seemed to care and i literally cried in front of her already which was embarrassing but yeah, never done that before

happy birthday base, i love plagiarism <3

i wish i could wipe my memory since it’s already bad enough

fUCK i forgot that jjk new season started airing today, i can’t be chronically online until i watch the first eps

🎪 la comédie-vampirique

my full final piece for @thevelvetcompote.bsky.social 's first zine, "blood & brocade." have some silly lestat and armand

#iwtv

omg sweetheart! realness tho

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SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

SONGZIO 26SS CAMPAIGN 'POLYPTYCH' featuring Seonghwa

btw, insane

came back online just to say my gf got me into mo dao zu shi and we first watched the untamed and now we’re almost done with the anime and idk i’m just screaming internally at all times now

happy 11th anniversary to "déjà-boo", jonghyun's first mini album title track! ♡

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!! #onepiece

extra specially good new year to all pyeonghongmen btw

happy new year to oomfies and oomf-in-laws!!

need a hug so bad

armand is babygirl

welp. i was car sick for nothing bc i had packed the envelope into my suitcase and i made it in the train with ten minutes to spare

i swear i sweat years off of my life being this anxious all the time

like i want to puke and we can’t even stop or go back bc i won’t make it to the fucking train otherwise i am about to lose it i can’t have my privacy invaded and i think they would respect it but i am still so so fucking anxious about the possibility