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the fact that my mom works in film industry is so random…. startles me every time i remember it

personally my future is bright but not because i’m securing a job after graduation (no one is #lol) but because i love doing little things and i know no one can that away from me

would be OVERRRRR. i still ended up at a nice place (after dropping out lol) but this mindset seems so ridiculous once you actually start going to classes

and he doesn’t even want to be a programmer!!! honestly getting into university is probably the most soul crushing experience ever when you’re 18 and it’s so not worth it. uni is NEVER that serious. like i remember i thought if i didn’t get into a uni in the us or in like russian top 3 my life

i’m sitting at that table knowing that i so will not work in the field that my degree is preparing me for and i already changed programs 2 times. imagine telling a 16 yo boy that his only way to get in is to get a paid degree that requires you to work in russian national security for 3 years

my little siblings are growing up and my parents already started abusing them about how important it is to get an education for free and how they’d rather make a deposit to buy them an apartment than pay for 4 years of college…….. i’m so freaking SAD

well yes!!!! super proud of you!!!! 🥺

пошла спать ❤️

мужчиной в грустной пижаме пока не получается. получится ли когда нибудь?

более того, я не чувствовала грусть, когда слушала одну из ее любимых песен в кофейне сегодня, я была рада. я давно не слушала этот альбом и вообще. jb - кайф! бариста-лесбиянка - кайф!!!! но конечно я не могла не подумать об али. и думать о них долго и не оказываться в комнате с этим

ричард сикен писал что горе это мужчина в грустной пижаме, которого вы держите запертым в комнате, потому что он является доказательством, что вы однажды что то любили, и я давно сняла замок с этой двери, но этот тред его снова завел в эту комнату

i can’t even begin to imagine the pain she has (had?) been feeling till that day but i hope she knew she was loved by me and by many others when she went away. i love you ali. thank you.

ever reach her for the whole day yet the thing that made me lose it was the items and people and songs she loved still being here. and oh boy did she know how to love. they were so gentle and attentive and kind. i don’t miss them everyday anymore but right now i really do.

on the evening . a few things i remember about that day is my mom telling me people can hear you for the first 9 days after they pass away and that i cried for the first time after i saw her last tweet about boygenius. i was writing letters trying to make sense of the fact that nothing i say will

чувствую себя как в твиттере 2020. жизнь прекрасна х2

я не вижу зла не слышу зла и не говорю о зле

купила две пачки чипсов. жизнь прекрасна!)