Gareth J M Saunders

Get well soon, Simon!

It's been a rough few days. But antibiotics are kicking in to treat an 80-plus-day chest infection and I hope tonight's diazepam and codeine will help my aching two herniated discs.

I believe the narrowest city is Thincinnatti.

San Francisco 49ers defender Nick Bosa at the end of the game against the Seattle Seahawks.

A good start to the NFL season for the #SF49ers. But sorry to see tight end George Kittle 85 go off with an injury. And some sloppy play in places (I'm looking at you Jake Moody).

I can

I can

Has this kit been inspired by Mars bars? # "A Mars a day helps you work, rest and play (American football for the San Francisco 49ers)."

Up early to take sons one and two to an army cadets drill competition.

Twenty-five years ago today, I celebrated my first Eucharist as a priest in the Scottish Episcopal Church. #pisky

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I've been playing a lot of Mastodon this evening, especially Cold Dark Place. Rest in peace Brent Hinds.

Exhausting day. Kidney pain was 7/10 at the start of the day, but has almost gone now. Phew! Heat made it worse. I feel grateful and thankful for my children and my friends. X

What a fabulous list!

Well, somehow I have managed to burst a cyst in my right kidney. The pain is quite extraordinary.

It's a sharp pain that feels like how I imagine it would be to be stabbed in the kidney.

The kind of pain that takes your breath away. I feel like I am going to pass out. Nausea, dizziness, pain.

This evening, I ported a Chrome extension that I'd written to Firefox. The add-on provides extra functionality to the content management system we use at work. It feels good to solve practical problems for colleagues.

Today I broke all ties with an ex girlfriend. I didn't come to this decision lightly. But I did come to it with a clearer view of my boundaries than I've seen in a long time. And the peace it has already brought me is remarkable. I didn't realise just how stressed I've been for years and years.

I got up at 06:00 this morning. My body felt exhausted and nauseated but my mind was running at 100mph. Got a bunch of stuff done. Snoozed throughout the day. Listened to an amazing new doom metal album. Watched some cricket. Threw up after dinner and felt a whole lot better. Tomorrow is a new day.

Furthest I've been:

North: John O'Groats, Scotland
East: Singapore
West: Honolulu, Hawaii
South: Dunedin, NZ

First bike ride in a month thanks to a lurking chest infection. Got out of the house, down the road, grey clouds loomed overhead, the wind picked up and the rain fell. It was exhausting but fantastic. Lay on my bed and listened to the cricket.

Oh, that is 100% not the lesson. I often say that you need to let out the bad jokes to make space for the good ones.

I remember a psychologist saying that what people say about you says more about them than it does about you.

This is an example. I read what you said and immediately thought: but cricket is just about perfect!

Or something. I haven't slept for two nights.

Ah! I read it as: do the same exercise but with cricket. I understand now.

Here we are on the Feast of the Transfiguration, the fifth anniversary of my mum's death. Her deathday, if you will. It's been a tough day.

A tricky and exhausting day today, the day between my late mum's birthday yesterday and, for want of a better word, deathday tomorrow. But two of my children are here, so my heart is full. (Also managed to drop my phone today and crack the screen protector.)

I'm not sure that cricket needs to be fixed. It's fabulous as it is. 🏏❤️

Productive morning working on a friend's website. Snooze over lunchtime, listening to the test match. Then a quick jaunt up to Perth with son #3 to collect son #2 from an army cadets event. Son #3 is now here overnight. Hurrah! An evening of laughter.

I can now see that my last few relationships really have been devastating for my mental (and physical) health, to put it lightly. The healing has begun. One step at a time.

Standing at my front door, knowing that I desperately want to go out for a walk but also feeling a deep fear. Not entirely sure where that is coming from. But I am going out anyway. Walk through the fear.

That photo is definitely not outside St Giles Cathedral, that's St Mary's Cathedral in Edinburgh.

That's been a long, tough week. I've worked more than an extra day in terms of hours during the past week. But I got the work done. Tomorrow is a new day. Time to move my body again and gently reclaim myself. The body holds the score... time to let go of some of it.

Sitting in the near dark listening to Godflesh - New Flesh in Dub Vol. 1. A fine way to spend the last few hours of a damp Thursday.